Eating

It's weird but some days I'm not hungry. I do go through the routine of eating something, so I kinda have to force myself to eat something.

I went to group today and we got stuck in the rain. I caught the trolley that leaves me in front of my apartment. I came home and again not hungry. I did have a bagel and that was it for the night.

When I got home Jean Luc had a shit fit. He was meowing like there was no tomorrow. He jumped into my arms and started licking my hand. It took him a while to calm down. Nice to be missed.

I think he just acted that way because he was hungry, but that wasn't it. I filled his bowl but he was still following me around the apartment. When I was ready to give him some loving, he decided to eat and then curled in his pillow next to the computer. He was out and slept a good four hours.

Chiffie out.

Pills!

My weekly medications. Thought I was lying? My meds are mostly paid by my insurance. There is one that I'm responsible, but it's only about $6.00.

Chif out.

Bowel Movements

I will never understand nurses' concern about bowel movements. I never used to move for the life of me.

I've been more active bowel movement wise. Today I had four! Maybe I'll shit myself away. LOL.

A quiet day today. HP came over and we did breakfast at Oasis. I also got breakfast tacos for tomorrow morning.

Nothing else to report. Just getting ready for bed.

Chiffie out.

Just Schleping

Had a great day today. HP came over as usual and we visited for a while. Then the idea for lunch came up. After naying several choices, we decided on Olive Garden. I hadn't been in decades.

Our waiter was gorgeous of course. I wonder if management looks especially for hotties. But there were several and I loved it. HP told me several times to stick my tongue back where it belongs.

Lunch was great as always and the dessert was mouth watering orgasmic. That was the first taste. I took my sweet time savoring it all.

While we were there we went to Target. I had to get some new chones. :-0 remember? Then we parted ways for the day. We'll see us tomorrow. He's been giving me manicures, he's such an angel.

And here we are. I did forget that he went to Einstein's and got me some of my favourite bagels. So I'm set for the week. Sometimes I just have a bagel for dinner for those weird days that I'm not hungry. Me? not hungry? yeah right. But I do have my days.

Chiffie out.

Pity Party for 1

My depression rolled over to this week. There's nothing to do just let it pass. I've tried all the things but it's still there. There will be a level in my system.

This morning I spent talking to people all around. I think it was in August that I got my hearing tested and was told I need a hearing aid. Like hello, everybody I know knows that.

Turns out that Humana would not pay for my hearing aid. Now turns out Aetna will pay for some of it. I'm kinda out of this but they will pay the amount I forgot. I still have $650 outta pocket for it. That got me down again.

I'm working with the doctor's office on this and they referred me to another agency that might pay the amount. So I need to call them in the morning to see what's going on.

Chiflado out.

Chinese New Year

Today marks the Year of the Dragon in the Chinese calendar. If there are any Dragons out there, give me a holler. I myself am a Dog always looking for a woofing time.

The more I look at this tattoo, the more I like it. Hmmmm...I do have seven tatts already. Think about an even amount of tatts.

Chiffie out.

Marcel Proust

Spent another day in bed. I'm trying to control this. I just wish it would stop and leave me alone.

Sometimes there are periods where things seem worst than they are, I'm there right now. I have to ride it out. Yes I'm on meds and they work sometimes and often, but I'm still where I started earlier.

Some people call it depression and some say it's me going through the change. Yeah, right. I just call it normal. I've been normal for over 40 years. I actually remember depression as a child. Of course it took me years to figure out, but when I was finally diagnosed, it all fell into place. The light bulb went on all of a sudden.

I could have done so much more had I this knowledge. Today was spent in bed all day again. I had three naps today. I swear I'm turning into a Jean Luc. If I could lick my privates then I would say I was feline.

But I'm just me, Chiflado. All my friends now know me as Chiflado. And Honey, I am Chiflado with a capital C. A lot of people have said plain out that I just need a good fuck. Sad to say I never walked up to anybody and asked for a dance, a light, something. But I prefer it when they come up and talk to them and see where it goes.

Chiffie out.

Panic V Anxiety

I'm in one of my moods as usual. I forget the difference between panic and anxiety attacks. At least I stay home. The other times I've gotten them I've been out and about.

It just comes out for minutes or hours. The other day I got one one block from home. All of a sudden the earth shook and I was like in jello where everything moved around me. I just walked faster and got home in time to hide them.

I woke up with these feelings and stayed in bed all day. I'm having a hard day of numbness. I get these feelings all over and I get them to the point where I shake all over. Right now I'm having what I like to say, are mini-orgasms.

They're absolutely fabulous. They get to the point of wanting a cigarette which I don't have but do hang with the smoking neighbours. I want to have sex just to see if it's the same thing. Like I need sex these days. Been there done that.

I'm having a glass of Gallo Sambria. I always get compliments from male buyers at the stores. I didn't know it's that good. Girl, I know nothing about booze just that it's good for us. When HP threw away his booze and brought it over for me to entertain with them. Der! Honey I went threw them like in one week. Throw away the booze...Honey, that's just alcoholic abuse if you ask me.

More later.

Sicko again

Just talked to HP and he asked about the camp out. It's only 112 days from today. We'll see what drama comes out of this. I'm already thinking karaoke. I love the Red Solo Cup or me and HP can do Remind me with Brad Paisley and Carrie Underwood. I think it's Brad. HP just refuses to get up onstage so maybe with me there, he'll start singing.

Dare I say it? It's 112 days until the camp out!

Chiflado

Catching up

Just a quick hello. Chiflado was very sick last week. I had a lot of chicken soup from El Oasis. Absolutely scrumptious. Next time I'll go visit my PCP. Nothing like love my baby gives me.

More later...

Chiflado

Out and About

HP decided to have a different Saturday for moi's sake. We went to lunch at Romanos Italian restaurant. It was different than other restaurants in the area. Our entrees were fantabulous.

After that, we went to HEB for supplies. I wanted to get some chicken to make soup if the need calls for it. We'll see what tomorrow expects.

We'll see what tomorrow brings. Oh, I'm doing a whole lot better than last week. Granted I was at home in my flannel jammies and enjoying the day. But HP suggested we go out. And out we did.

We had a fabulous lunch and then went to HEB. So there I was, getting all the makings for chicken soup. All I can say is Halleleluia. I got everything on my list and had to use the little boys room. When I came out, my cart was missing.

Long story short, somebody took my cart and I never saw it again. How rude. So, I had to enter and see what goes again.

Chiffiie out

Sicko 2

Please make this stop. I've been in bed for the past week almost. I was actually able to keep track of a conversation. Right now, most conversations come and go and I don't know where they're going.

I've had chicken soup from El Oasis downstairs. Four soups. They already know my voice when I call an order. I am tired of it though. I've had soup all week. That's a lot and I feel like I'm growing feathers.

I just got lost in conversation like I've done before. Oh well, who cares? I just spent another few minutes trying to remember what was said.

I know I have to get with the motion and see which fly looks cheesier.

Laters Chif out

Sicko

Hello Guyz and Gals, just a quick note telling the world I'm sick, have been for the past few days. No temperature, not your usual things going on. I have been in bed for the past three days.

I do get up to see that Jean Luc has food and water. He's been wonderful to me. He curls up next to me like around my knees and he shoves himself up and maneuvers his fat ass and starts to clean himself. He is such a chiflado cat and he knows it.

Chif out.

Happy New Year's Eve

Okay, it's a new year and I slept through the noise. It was just Jean Luc in bed when we heard some of the noise. I fell asleep around 10 p.m. Another holiday come and gone and no reason to celebrate. I can still hear fireworks here and there.

Chif out.