Chicken Soup

I'm still not feeling well. I called Oasis for some chicken soup today. There's something soothing about soup. I ate it and took a five hour nap. 

I'm sleeping too much, but seems like I need it. I'm ready to go to sleep right now. I feel like I'm sleeping my life away. I wish I could get over this depression, but it's lurking.

Someday I'll get over this and I'll be back to normal. 

Chiflaco out. 

Depression

Don't know why it happens but it does. I can feel a depression coming or it just hits me out of the blue. This one came out of the blue.

I was minding my own business when it hit me and hit me hard. I couldn't stop crying. I'm still depressed but I know why this time. Personal of course. Nothing I would share here.

I've been sleeping a lot lately. These naps keep me in bed thinking. Thinking of a lot of things and one. I've dealt with these feelings for over four decades now. 

Spent the day in bed today. Jean-Luc was beside me and he helps out a lot. I am truly blessed to have him in my life. He keeps me centered. 

I only had toast for dinner. That was all I could keep down. I wake up ready for bed. I hate this. But what can I do? No medications or therapy can help me when I'm blue. 

Nothing much going on. Just stay in bed is all I'm doing. I want to do things but my heart's not into them. 

Chiflaco out. 

Better

I'm doing a whole lot better. I think it was the air filter that was making me sick. It was dirty and had some mold. I just can not believe my readings. Whatever, I'm doing better. 

High Blood Pressure

My readings are still high. Dr Martinez put me on two meds to get it to a normal reading. I check every day to see if I'm doing better. 

Yesterday I went to my PCP. Of course he wasn't there. Dr Martinez is not available for PCP, and Humana named another doctor. I'm not pleased.

I got a wet noodle lashing because of my wrist cuff. While there, I had three different readings. They did say I should get the manual cuff instead. 

I was disappointed. One thing I did notice is that I feel worse at home. Yesterday I felt okay when I went out. But as soon as I got back, I wasn't feeling well again. 

I just got a clean air filter and I hope that will work for me.

Chiflaco out. 

Eddie

Eddie's back to abnormal. He was apparently depressed which made him disappear from sight. I know the feeling. 

He was in the hospital again. This time it was a pneumonia. He really sounded bad when I talked to him. But he's out and he's in good spirits. 

He asked Victoria to look in on me. How sweet. I did go over several times and had a blast. She's real cool and I have bonded with her partner Natalie.

Chiflaco out. 

High Blood Pressure

This is kinda hard for me to believe. My blood pressure has been high for the past two weeks. I didn't know it was blood pressure but I have not been feeling well for a bit.

Eddie came over one day with his cuff and we got a high reading. I finally gave in and bought myself one. Last night my reading was 251/110! Wow! Now I check myself daily and keeping a log.

Went to the Dr's and got a script for yet another pill. I have graduated from a lot of meds and only taking 14 now, compared to 23. I'm happy with that. 

Today I'm feeling a bit better. Still have a headache and dizziness, but then people will say I've always been dizzy! LOL.

Chiflado out. 

Dr's Visit

Went to see my doctor Friday. I went to get a letter allowing me to swim at the Natatorium for free. He gave me the letter with all the info. I've been wanting to go for the past year but could not afford the visits. Hopefully with this note I'll be able to swim and get my girlish figure again.

While I was there I also mentioned my bad right shoulder. It's been bothering me for a while. I woke up one morning with a sharp pain. He gave me a script that seems to be working. 

Also talked about my high blood pressure. I've been good, but lately, I have been having headaches that I think are because of my blood pressure. He also gave me a script for that and we'll see what happens. 

Nothing much going on. Just waiting around to go swim.

Chiflaco out. 

HEB

Went grocery shopping yesterday with Eddie and Victoria and Natalie, two neighbors down the hall from me. That's all we need, two faggots and two lesbians.

We had a blast. Me and Victoria finished our shopping and we had to wait for Eddie. That girl can shop, he bought stuff to last the month.

I also bought a Purina product for Jean-Luc to watch his weight. He likes it so I'm gonna keep on buying the stuff.

Afterwards, we went to a Mexican restaurant on Zarzamora St. The food was amazing. I had a lengua taco and a bean and rice taco. I thought about it afterwards and found it funny for me to get the bean and rice taco when I've eaten that for the past month at home. Anyhoooo, it's a restaurant I would go back to.

Chiflaco out.

Baking

Lately I've been baking as therapy. My friends here have been impressed with my baking. My specialty is carrot cake. They oohed and ahed went they tasted it. I just do it for attention. I like the limelight.

Eddie also noticed that my memory has improved since I started baking. I never keep track of things like that. And another neighbour, Victoria, has also seen a change in me.

I just know that I like following the directions and whipping up something spectacular. I rarely eat any of my creations.

Doug is also a good baker and cook. I guess he does it for therapy also. He's always giving food away and I'm on his distribution list. I just know that I'll enjoy his cooking.

He brought over a vegetable soup the other day and it was so tasty. Kinda caldo de res without the res. I can hardly wait for his next creation.

Chiflado out.

Doug

Doug is an older man I have the hots for. We've been very close and it's this side of a relationship. He's tall, handsome, and white.

We met a councilman the other day and I commented that he looked attractive. Doug said he's my type, tall, handsome and white. I said you just described yourself.

He's also a great baker. He recently gave me a bunt pan and a springform pan. I also have a cast iron skillet he gave me a few years ago.

Eddie and I got on the elevator one day and Doug was there looking for me. He was concerned because we had a lunch date and I missed it. He looked at Eddie and said what's this?

Afterwards, Eddie said he's perfect for me. I call Doug my Silver Daddy. And he gives great hugs. Next time I'm gonna try a little harder. Mike also thinks he's great for me. I didn't know people cared about me that much.

We'll see what happens. We've been very close for the past nine years. It's just a matter of time. He also makes the best vodka martinis I've ever had. One day we had a lunch to go to and we each had about three martinis. I can't believe we went out that day.

I'll keep you posted.

Chiflado out.

Ladies Who Lunch

I treat myself periodically. I eat salads at home and eat smaller portions.

Eddie and I went to Bob's Big Burgers the other day. The food was awesome! I had a 50/50 burger which is Angus beef and bacon. OMG! It was fabulous.

The other thing that I liked about it is they have Pepsi!!! I was in heaven. Like I said, it was a treat.We also had onion rings and fried mushrooms. Again OMG!

I was stuffed. That was all the meal I had that day. We sat outside and people watched. There was a cute guy walking his poodle and Eddie struck up a conversation with him. Ya'll know how shy I am. I would never do that.

We had a great time. Wound up spending like two hours talking and laughing. I would definitely go again and I would recommend it. Here's the link http://www.bigbobsburgers.com/

If ya'll go, I hope you like it as well.

Chiflaco Out