I'm still in a Diana mood. Been listening to my Diana collection all day long. Ah the memories. Of course this got me in the mood to see Trevor.
Trevor is an Academy Award winning short about the coming of age of a young boy. Trevor is coming to terms with being gay. He loves Diana and lip syncs to her albums. He longs for attention and thinks of ways to commit suicide. He even practices for his funeral.
We're all Trevor in many ways. We all identified with him when we saw it many moons ago. I have been likened to Trevor by several people here and in Michigan. Wonder why? I just hope for my happy ending.
Chiflaco out.
I must have done something right in a previous life. I have great karma following me.
I have some great neighbours. I share things with them and they in return share with me.
Yesterday Andrew brought me some beer. He volunteers at church functions and people periodically leave booze behind. He brings me the leftovers. I share things with him. He sometimes forgets to go to the store and he comes down for a little bit of food. He also asks for pain killers which I never have. And he's gay friendly, he's real cool.
Victoria is a chef at Central Market. She periodically brings me a plate of food and it is always scrumptious. I in turn always share my baking with her and Natalie, and Joseph. They're all real cool also.
Natalie is Victoria's partner and she's studying to be a beautician. That means that she needs practice. So guess who gets free haircuts? She came over last night with her weed wacker and did a number on my hair. I was having a bad hair week and she came to the rescue.
I almost forgot Barbara. She's Chuck's sister and cherished friend. She sends me gift cards to HEB so I can go get some food and sundry items. I got a sister out of that relationship.
I am truly blessed.
Chiflaco out.
I didn't mean to, but I fell in love 24 years ago.
I was sitting in the cafeteria one night and this guy stopped by and joined me for dinner. He sat down and we began talking. I found we had a lot in common as we laughed and talked.
Ernie was a cut up. I actually allowed him to give me a ride home the next morning. And so it started.
I'd be at work and I'd get a phone call and he would say he'd pick me up. He would surprise me with a picnic. We'd go to a park and laugh and eat. We did a lot of laughing...and eating too.
He introduced me to his family and I became a fixture in his life. I was happy. I never felt like I belonged and here I felt whole for the first time in my life. He had a dinner for me one night where he introduced me to his friends. They all liked me of course.
I spent the night one time and we shared his bed. In the middle of the night I awoke to find him staring at me. Was I making it up? Was I dreaming? I just went back to sleep.
We went shopping one day and bought a tent and sleeping bags. He picked me up one day and drove to the coast where we pitched the tent and proceeded to enjoy the beach. We found some hazelnut coffee and made a great pot. We bought some shrimp and grilled them on his grill. Life was great.
We would go to employee banquets and we always put on a show. We would dress up and outdo the managers. Someone took a photo of us and I enlarged it and framed it and gave him a copy. We were so happy.
I never said anything. In my mind's eye he loved me back. But mum's the word. Why was I scared?
I lost track of him once upon a time, but I never forgot him. How could I? I went off on adventures but my heart was always here in San Antonio. I think I wrote him telling him how I felt but I never heard from him. I still haven't. We should talk sometime.
I came back and caught up with him again. Nothing's changed. I still love him. I have always been afraid of rejection, so I still haven't done anything. We see each other periodically and there's still that chemistry. I catch him looking at me but don't say anything.
He came over the other day to help me out with the computer. I hadn't seen him in over two years but he's still the handsomest, sweetest man I've ever met. The chemistry's still there and we talk as if we've never been apart.
Sometimes I think I should bring it up but I hesitate. I talked about him in therapy today. It felt good talking about him. Everything is good about him. I wish we could spend more time together but so much time has passed.
I hesitate because of rejection. I hesitate because I'm used garbage and infected garbage at that! I know relationships exist between positive and negative partners but I wouldn't put him through that. I didn't before when I was healthy, so why bother now?
Don't know when I'll see him again. We periodically go for Indian food because we're the only ones that like that cuisine. I hope I don't have to wait another two years to see him. I do want to talk to him when we get together. After 24 years...I still love the guy.
Just wanted to share.
Chiflaco out.
Like I'm surprised. I was waiting for the bus yesterday when a bus came by and I got up to get on it. The operator stopped and changed it to Out of Service. That means that it's only going downtown and then back to the garage.
This has happened before and I've nicely said I'm only going down a few stops. This time the bus driver said no that it was against policy to pick anyone up. How rude! I just told her this was yet another bad VIA experience.
Wish they would get their you-know-what together.
Chiflaco out.
Apparently I forgot to use my $15 of food stamps last month. That means that I had $30 to spend. Just got back from the store and I stocked up my freezer full of goodies. Now I have food for the next week and a half.
If you didn't know she was a faggot, you know now!
We all know where we were Thursday 21 July 1983. We were glued to the TV all set to watch Diana. She was giving a concert in Central Park.
The show started off great, great entrance. Then it happened, the wind started up and then it began to rain. Trouper that she is, she kept on performing. Then it got really bad and she had to stop but not before promising to return the next day.
Then Friday came and we were all drinking and ready for the show of a lifetime. Diana did not let us down as usual. She opened with I'm Coming Out and she ran from her trailer and up the steps to the stage and she just wowed us.
Miss Ross was Supreme. She gave a great concert and it went on for a while. But it was too short for us fans. I had a blast watching the concert. I splurged when I saw it on Amazon. I'm lucky to have it and will watch it periodically. I also was able to get her concert from Caesar's Palace which is another great concert. I remember I used to have it on laser disc way back when.
Should I even mention that I've seen her in concert? And she does not disappoint. I would love to see her again...maybe one day.
Chiflaco out.
Got my passport out and headed out to the barrio the other day. I had to go to the clinic pharmacy to pick up a script. It's a hassle but it's free.
I left here at 8,30 and ventured out. I had to take to buses to get there. Lots of waiting. The bright side is that I schlepped out in the morning before it gets hot.
I had to run another errand and I had to take three buses to get there. More waiting. Since I was out, I had lunch at a Chinese buffet. The embarrassing thing was that I was walking back to my table and my shorts started to fall down. Thank gawd I had showered that morning. I managed to hold on to my tray and lift my shorts up at the same time. Very talented.
Then I took the bus home and was exhausted by the time I got home. I got home at 2,15. That's almost six hours out of my day. Granted I don't do anything, it's the principle. I came home, took another shower and lay down. I didn't sleep, I just rested.
VIA sucks big time. Had I a car, I would have done my running around in an hour. I hope they fix VIA sometime soon.
Chiflaco out.
I'm tired. I had a busy day. I started off by going to the clinic to get refills on some psych meds. They've been saying they're now taking my insurance. I've been talking to the insurance and they don't have the clinic in network. Well today they called the insurance and were on the phone about 30 minutes. They still couldn't find the clinic and Maria said they do take the insurance but they don't have the address. They're working on it.
Then I went downstairs for breakfast. I hadn't had chilaquiles is quite a while so I was sated. Then it was off to the library.
Then out of the blue I decided to go to Academy to buy some trunks. I need to start getting in shape. It's so difficult to find trunks without a print. I want a simple colored pair. I found a pair and now I have to get on the ball about swimming. Supposedly I can swim for free with a doctor's note which I have. We'll see.
Then I came home and crashed. I didn't nap, I just lay in bed catching my breath. I was tired.
Chiflaco out.
Went to see Evita with Mike and Tony the other night. We went to Mexican Manhattan for dinner. Afterwards we bumped into Mark Cuban schlepping downtown. He's just as handsome in person as he is in the Time Warner commercials.
Then off to the Majestic for a great musical. Of course we did a lot of people watching and critiquing. You know how girls can get catty.
We all agreed that the musical was a whole lot better than the movie. Duh.
Chiflaco out.
