Busy Day

Just when I had nothing to write, I actually have something to write about.

Went to the hunky dentist where I was trying my partial. It should be ready next week.

I came home to frijoles and rice. The lunch of champions.

Then I went to see Joey. We talked for an hour. I did tell him that I'm looking forward to death. I'm ready for it.

I do tell Mike these feelings. He says he doesn't know what to do with me. I tell him to pull the trigger. He has a gun. Then I can be happy.

Chiffie out.

Mental Health Day

I was busy today. I went to the library to get some DVDs and went to the pharmacy to pick up a psyche pill.

I also got to see Joey, my therapist. He wants me to step away and see how I am. He also wants me to leave my home and do something. My counter claim is that it's too hot and I have no money to do things.

Chiffie out.

Dr's Visit

Went to the clinic to get my results. My t-cell count dropped again to 129 and I'm still undetectable. I did ask about my blood pressure but he said I was okay and did not prescribe me anything.

Also saw the nutritionist and she was happy that I gained a pound and a half. She's still worried about my weight. I would like to lose ten or more pounds but she says I shouldn't because I'm big boned.

She also gave me a supply of Ensure. She wants me to have one at night.

Chiffie out.

Target

Joey gave me a gift card for Target. He thought I can get some groceries, but Target doesn't have that much of a selection.

So I schlepped to Target to see what I could find. I found 2 shirts that I wanted. I also bought some pillows.

I got on the bus coming home. When I got to my apartment, I found out that that bag stayed on the bus. Of course I called VIA but there was no way to contact the bus. I went by the VIA office and no one had turned it in.

This only happens to me. Just got to grin and bear it.

Chiffie out.

Dentist

I got a call from my dentist that they had a cancellation for cleaning today.

Dr R is one hot hunk. Sandy blond hair, piercing blue eyes. He also has a firm shake when I said hello. He actually remembers me from three years ago or so. He said I looked like I had lost weight. Baby!

So I had my teeth cleaned and we took an impression for a partial. I should have it within two weeks.

Chiffie out.

Sunday

Anybody that knows me knows how important I value the theatre. Mike and I went to the Majestic to see The Addams Family Sunday.

Being Mother's Day, he took me out for lunch at the Chinese Buffet. We stuffed our mouths and had a good visit.

Chiffie out.

Last Weekend

Don't know why I didn't blogged this. Monday I went to the podiatrist and he clipped my toe nails and prescribed something for my toe nails.

Tuesday I met with Joey, he's my new therapist at one of the agencies. He's really good. He allows me to talk but he does most of the talking. Still depressed though.

And Thursday I went with the psychiatrist at the clinic to get scripts for some meds I need. Also got a script for sleeping. I had my Ambien and it worked. I slept like a baby.

Chiflado.

Frustrated

Sometimes I feel like giving up. So many hurdles to cross. Being on disability is a full time job with me at the center.

I need one medication and the clinic I go to left a bad taste in my mouth. I have the empty bottle as proof that I need this. They said I need to talk to my physician about it.

And then there are eyeglasses. I was told that I could go to an eyeglass business and I would have to contact the agency.

So I went to the agency and they said I needed to fill out a form and I did. Now I have to wait.

Back in the day I was in charge of my medical needs. Now it's 'them' I have to deal with. Again, I feel like just giving up on everything. What's the point?

Just something else that makes me depressed.

Chiffie out.

Great Hair Day

I usually have my hair styled like the current gay haircut. Combed to the front with a little tuft up.

I haven't had my hair styled so I've been combing it to the back. My hair still looks good. People actually remarked on how great my hair looks.

I do get paid tomorrow so I'll go have my hair styled to the front again.

Chiffie out.

Therapy

I've been seeing a therapist at one of the agencies. He is great and I'm slowly getting comfortable with myself.

Last week he asked what song to associate my childhood. All I could think about was Strangers in The Night. LOL.

Then I went home and started thinking about it. I realized the music I liked was melancholy. The music soothed me and calmed me.

We still talked about music yesterday. He asked what song would I associate with. And I came up with a CW song, The One that Got Away. It does have an upbeat tempo.

Then I thought about The Man that Got Away by Judy. He found it in You Tube and of course I sang along with Judy.

More later.

Chiffie out.