Sunny and HOT!

It's fabulous weather out. The sun's out and there're blue skies. Perfect day for laying out. That's one thing I miss from Michigan. We used to have a deck out back and I could lay out to my heart's content.

It's too hot and I have no place to lay out down here. I'd kill for a pool and some sun tan lotion. And some cool refreshing beverage, preferably with some alcohol.

It's also humid out. I was actually perspiring in the shade today. I would have stayed home but I had to go pick up my bus pass. For $2 I can ride the bus for a month. It used to be free, but it's still a bargain.

Still a quiet week. No drama after last week. My finger is almost back to normal. Amen. Nothing much to report.

Jean-Luc has been very needy again. He likes to hop on my lap and take a little nap. This is usually when I plug in a movie so we won't be disturbed. Everybody loves him. He's so loving and affectionate. Not like some other cats I know.

Just wanted to say hello.

Chiflaco out.

Drs Visits

I have callouses on my feet that are very uncomfortable. I went to a podiatrist a while ago and he pared them off. He suggested I get pedicures saying that they can whittle down the callouses. NOT!

So I went to the doctor to get a referral. Guess I'll just see the podiatrist regularly to take care of them.

While at the doctor's, I mentioned some dry, itchy skin on my shoulder and ears. He said it was scabies and gave me a script for it. Turns out scabies are transmitted by cats! Jean-Luc gave them to me. I have to think about getting rid of him but that's impossible. Guess I'll have to live with scabies.

I also mentioned a swollen index finger. I bought a ring that got stuck and infected my finger. The doctor couldn't do anything for me but gave me the number to an urgent care clinic where they might have a ring cutter.

So today I went to the clinic and the doctor was able to cut it off. He bandaged my finger and gave me an ice pack. I feel so relieved. My finger was really bothering me. The swelling made my finger very tender. Okay, it hurt like hell. I had to do something about it. I did like the ring, it was a Buddha head and I kept it as a remembrance.

My finger is almost back to normal. I can still feel the ring even though it's not there anymore. My finger is still swollen but not as tender as it was before.

Other than that, I'm doing okay. I'm on the road to recovery. And I went by the pharmacy to pick up my script for scabies, and they didn't have it! They had to order it and should be delivered tomorrow. I'm very anxious about it.

Jean-Luc has been very attentive. Guess he knows something's up. He doesn't know that he's the reason I'm sick. Poor baby. I just can't give him up. We're too much in love to let a little medical problem come between us.

Chiflaco out.

Doing Better

I'm doing a whole lot better today. Victoria stopped by last night and suggested Vic's Vapor Rub. I snapped and rubbed some on. I almost immediately felt better.

I rubbed some more today and I just came back from the dead. I also had some chicken soup from Oasis. I love their soup with white meat, potatoes, celery, zuchinni and rice. I always order extra rice.

I ate some and felt great. I already told Mike next time I get sick to remind me to use the vapor rub. I know he'll remember. I know I'll forget.

I've been taking Nyquil and Dayquil and that's helped a lot. Of course the gargling also helped. It's just so nice to be back from the dead.

I just need days of recuperation and more chicken soup. I'll eat some just to be on the safe side.

Chiflaco out

Summer Cold

This is not funny. I've had a cold for two weeks now. Stuffy nose, sneezing, stuffy head, coughing, at least my fever broke a few days ago.

I am gargling with salt water or hydrogen peroxide. It's on the label, strange but true. I've done everything but chicken soup. That's next on the agenda.

Maybe that's why I haven't shown any interest in anything. I've tried to watch a movie or read but nothing keeps my attention.

I went to therapy today but my heart was just not in it. I'm doing okay but I still go for the disability portion. If they should investigate, they will see that I'm still seeing a therapist.

And my psychiatrist got booted. I have to start all over again. It's kinda difficult finding someone new. I have to feel them out to see if I'll be comfortable with them. We'll see.

I'm off to bed already. I'm gonna take some Nyquil and go to bed.

Chiflaco out.

Vicious

Vicious is a comedy on PBS. It's about a gay couple that has been together for 50 years. And they are vicious to each other and everyone. They throw zingers at each other that are hilarious. Starring Ian McKellan and Derek Jacobi, this is definitely worth watching.

Le Quartoze Juilliet-Bastille Day

14 July, Bastille Day or Le Quartoze Juillet. In 14 July 1789, the French stormed the Bastille starting the French Revolution. In 1790 France celebrated the unity of the French People. Vive La France.

This is also Jean-Luc's 6th birthday. He was born sometime in July and this is a good date as any. He's quite the charmer and he demanded a lot of attention today. I picked this day to celebrate his birthday because it was an easy day to remember.

Yes, he's been demanding a lot of attention lately. He sleeps with me and takes naps on my lap. I plug in a DVD and he cuddles and naps. He is so spoiled.

Chiflaco out.

Amen

I went to church with Mike and Tony today. Why I don't know. Well, Mike's birthday is next week and he's working so I wanted to take him out for lunch. So rather than them going to church and picking me up and dropping me off, I went to church to save them a trip.

The Metropolitan Community Church is for all purposes a gay church. Founded decades ago I think in California, they are country wide and maybe worldwide, I'm not sure.

Anyhoo, every other word out of their mouth is amen. The first few times were okay, but really. It's a beautiful Sunday, amen. Hope you had a great week, amen. The lord is with us, amen. You get the picture.

It's just not for me. I was bored out of my gourd and laughing inside. I don't know how I made it through the service, amen, but I did, amen. LOL.

Well, whatever floats your boat.

Anyhoo, we went to Luther's where we pigged out. I had the brisket sandwich and it was succulent, amen. Not to be outdone, we even had dessert. And I'm not one for dessert, but it was a special day.

I had the chocolate dream or something like that. A chocolate cake over a bed of Oreo's with vanilla ice cream and whipped cream. It was evil, amen.

Well, it was nice to see them. We see little of each other and moreso now that Mike moved in with Tony. I think I wrote here that Tony lives in Boerne, which is a small burg west of here. They say it's close, but to me it seems like across the country.

I'm happy for them and a bit envious. I remember being in relationships and looking out for my boyfriend or him looking out after me. I see that and I'm happy for Mike. Seeing them is nauseating though. Too much sugar! Amen! LOL.

And, I'm stuffed. I will not be eating tonight. I feel like a beached whale. But a contented one. Amen.

Chiflaco out.

Pepsi vs Coke

This is a heated debate. Which is tastier, Pepsi or Coke? Well, here's my two cents.

Hands down Pepsi is better. I had my first Pepsi in Mexico decades ago. It was so tasty and sweet. When I came back to the states, I tried Pepsi and while it was great, it wasn't as tasty as the Mexican formula.

Yesterday I drank a Coke. It was almost flat and not as tasty as Pepsi. I should have gotten a Dr. Pepper. When I go to a restaurant I always order Pepsi. If they don't have it, I will order a Dr. Pepper or water. I have to make a statement.

The added plus of Pepsi, is that Joan Crawford backed it in the 60's. Her last husband was with Pepsi and she demanded Pepsi products be served on-set. Of course I love Joan and she is a native San Antonian.

PEPSI ALL THE WAY.

Chiflaco out.

Ladies Who Lunch

It's been a quiet week. We were supposed to go to a rugby game today but that fell through.

Mike, Tony, and I went to lunch. They picked me up after church, like I was gonna go. At least the roof is still standing.

We went to Sam's Burger Joint on Grayson off Broadway. We had a fun time as usual. I've been on a swiss and onion mood for some reason. Just can't get enough.

Afterwards, they opened a gift I got them. It was a house warming gift, or a happy-you-moved-in-together gift. I got them a wind chime with crosses because they're so spiritual. I always know how to give gifts. I don't accept them but I love to give.

I kinda hate seeing them together. Makes me wish I had someone. But I've already decided the kitchen is closed. I will never be in another relationship. Too bad because I have so much to offer.

Chiflaco out.

Too Cute!

Drug Holiday

I decided to take a drug holiday. That means that I did not take my HIV medication. I just got fed up of taking it. It's not as if it's gonna kill me.

Well, I had labs last month and my t-cell count went up! Go figure. Just for that I'm not taking them again. Who cares anyway? As my parents used to say Cosa Mala Nunca Muere, Bad Things Never Die! LOL.

Chiflaco out.

Quiet Week

Nothing much going on this week. The highlight was Sister Act.

I did get approved for another year of food stamps. I'm still getting only $15 a month.

Mike moved to Boerne with Tony. Guess I'll see him less. But he's happy and that's all that counts.

I've been in a funky mood for some reason. It's like I'm fighting a depression. I lay down every day and just lie in bed. I don't nap I just lie there. Of course Jean-Luc lies down with me. He's my savior.

Chiflaco out.

Sister Act

Went to see Sister Act Tuesday night. Based on the movie, the musical was hilarious. Great songs and acting and you should watch it if you get the chance.

Went to the Houston St Bistro for dinner. Mike had the salmon, Tony the gorgonzola chicken, and I had the beef brochettes which is fancy for kabobs and they were scrumptious. Served with grilled bell peppers and onion over a bed of basmati rice. I've been there before and highly recommend it.

Birthday Boy

Happy 43rd Birthday to hunky Josh Lucas. Loved him in Sweet Home Alabama.

Family Luncheon

Went to lunch to celebrate Barbara's birthday. It was great seeing the family. We went to a Chinese buffet, the kids are picky and we usually go somewhere they can eat. I do like this photo, you can't see my belly much! And I pigged out. I didn't eat the rest of the day, hell, I might not eat tomorrow. Don't tell my nutritionist that!

It was great sitting down and catching up with everyone. The kids have grown so much. Seems like just yesterday they were in diapers. Seems like yesterday I was changing Debra and Barbara's diapers. Gawd I'm old.

Went to Best Buy to get Debra something and we flirted outrageously with Matt. He's hot. I liked the fact that he was furry and that's what Debra didn't like. Then went to Wal-Mart where I got some skinny clothes.

I look forward to another family outing. I think we should do monthly potlucks but we'll see what happens. We also talked about karaoke, they know how much I like to sing.

Chiflaco out.

Dark Shadows

I remember back when I used to run home to watch Dark Shadows with my sister. I don't remember much of it to tell the truth. Well, the other night Tony brought it up and I stupidly checked Netflix. Guess what?

I've already seen over 100 episodes and I can't believe how bad it is. The acting is bad and everything is so predictable. I like to watch it just for the bloopers. And you can see the camera and I laugh when the actors don't know their lines and they blatantly look at the cue cards and read their lines.

I've already told Mike I hate Tony. We've all gotten a good laugh out of it. I can hardly wait for my next disc.

Chiflaco out.

Tony's

It's that time of year again. The Tony's are on tonight and Hugh Jackman is the host this year. I've watched since like forever. I always felt like I should be on stage receiving and award. I'm rooting for Neil Patrick Harris and Bryan Cranston. Keep your fingers crossed.

Manic

I've been in a manic mood lately, more manic than depressed. I can never control these feelings. I'm on my meds but the feelings still there.

I've also been manic eating. I've been like PacMan after the cherries. But then there have been days when I don't eat. My nutritionist hates those days. I'm ambivalent about it. Of course.

I've had a sense of euphoria for some reason. It's like I'm fighting a depression. I don't want to be depressed but my memories keep haunting me. I have too many memories and lately I've been thinking of the bad ones.

I still mourn my sister. She was the best. She was my friend, confidante, mother, everything. We had a blast. She did everything by the book but she had a bad life for a while there. God worked in mysterious ways when he took her from us. She left a void that can never be replaced. I still cry when I think of her like right now. I do have lots of happy memories with her and they always bring a smile to my face. I miss her. I wish she were still around for her girls and her grandchildren.

Then I think of relationships past. I've had some interesting ones. I think about my high school sweetheart, the love of my life, the one that got away, and my two mistakes. There were good memories but also some bad ones. You learn from your mistakes and I made my fair share. If I could I would do things just the same I guess. They made me who I am. And I'm happy with me for some reason. I'm content with where I am.

I do wish I could get in contact with David. He was the love of my life 29 years ago. I still love him and I have actually come across him twice but he doesn't want to communicate with me for some reason. I just emailed him and I know he won't reply.

Then there's Ernie, the one that got away. I fell for him almost immediately. We complemented each other is so many ways. It was like it was made in heaven. We loved each other as friends and it was a small step to really love each other. I'm mad at myself for not being able to talk to him about it.

I even think of Chuck. He was my bad relationship. He swept me off my feet. But then the abuse started and I was not in a good place. He had his sweet moments but they were overshadowed by his bad moods. And he took them out on me...and I let him. I had no choice.

And then there's Steve. He was gonna be my last one. He told me he loved me and I fell for it. He said the right things. When he asked me to move with him I didn't hesitate. He came down one Christmas and I said good-bye to my parents and nieces and left.

We had a nice life together for a few years. Then he got involved with a bunch of losers and that started the nail in the coffin. We had problems and when I broached the subject he said everything was fine. I even left out a couples therapy brochure that he totally ignored. Hey, I saw a problem and wanted to work on it but he said everything was fine. It wasn't.

He cheated on me and never had the cojones to admit to it. I'm not blind. I saw what was going on. I'm not stupid. I know that's how I got HIV. But he's HIV-, go figure. Guess my slut days caught up with me.

So I've been moody. I do have some crying spells. But then I watch Diana's concerts and my spirits are lifted. I listen to Bette Midler's Live at Last cd and I have a smile on my face. I also have Tina Turner and Wham! DVDs to watch. What a faggot.

Oh well, what's a guy to do? Just manage.

Chiflaco out.

Trevor

I'm still in a Diana mood. Been listening to my Diana collection all day long. Ah the memories. Of course this got me in the mood to see Trevor.

Trevor is an Academy Award winning short about the coming of age of a young boy. Trevor is coming to terms with being gay. He loves Diana and lip syncs to her albums. He longs for attention and thinks of ways to commit suicide. He even practices for his funeral.

We're all Trevor in many ways. We all identified with him when we saw it many moons ago. I have been likened to Trevor by several people here and in Michigan. Wonder why? I just hope for my happy ending.

Chiflaco out.

Karma

I must have done something right in a previous life. I have great karma following me.

I have some great neighbours. I share things with them and they in return share with me.

Yesterday Andrew brought me some beer. He volunteers at church functions and people periodically leave booze behind. He brings me the leftovers. I share things with him. He sometimes forgets to go to the store and he comes down for a little bit of food. He also asks for pain killers which I never have. And he's gay friendly, he's real cool.

Victoria is a chef at Central Market. She periodically brings me a plate of food and it is always scrumptious. I in turn always share my baking with her and Natalie, and Joseph. They're all real cool also.

Natalie is Victoria's partner and she's studying to be a beautician. That means that she needs practice. So guess who gets free haircuts? She came over last night with her weed wacker and did a number on my hair. I was having a bad hair week and she came to the rescue.

I almost forgot Barbara. She's Chuck's sister and cherished friend. She sends me gift cards to HEB so I can go get some food and sundry items. I got a sister out of that relationship.

I am truly blessed.

Chiflaco out.