Mental Health Day

Went to the psychiatrist the other day. We talked about my mental health which is always bad. I got scripts for my psych meds.

Then I saw my therapist. I still haven't decided if I like her or not. We talked about my eating patterns which are bipolar. I'm hungry and then I'm not hungry. And there are times when I forget to eat. I am a queer duck.

I'm still dealing with the adoption thing. I never felt part of the family and now I know why. I am po'd  that nobody told me. I'm still kinda shocked that my sister never told me because we were so close. I go to her grave and ask why.

Then there's my other sister. She was a friend and stopped talking to me in December 1986. If she was such a good friend she could've have told me. My brother is a creep who never talked to me and now I know why.

I always wonder why my parents told David my boyfriend at the time. He told me and I just let it slide. My parents liked him obviously and I guess they figured I would be cool when he told me.

And then they told my niece Debra. When I was in Michigan, she told me she had some news to tell me about myself. I told her I would wait until another time. I finally asked her two years ago and she told me the news. Of course I was cool with it.

It really bothered my at my Mom's funeral when they said she was survived by her son, daughter and adopted son. Everybody turned and looked at me. I sat there proudly.

Looks like I rambled again.

Chiflaco out.

Mike

My BFFF Mike is in the hospital again with pancreatitis. This is the third time in as many years. He pushes himself and works overtime and it just gets on my nerves.

He was asleep when I got there but he woke up for a little while and we talked. The nurse went by to get a glucose reading and it was 220! And he hasn't eaten anything since yesterday.

I worry about him. I don't want him to die first because he wants me to sing the worst Bette Midler song, Wind Beneath My Wings. I hate that song. It was a sellout. Everyone I know hates that song.At least I'm in good company. I refuse to sing it, maybe I'll read it but I will not sing it.

Pray for Mike. Light candles. Think positive thoughts.

Chiflaco out.

Dr's Visit

Went to the doctor's today. I was very concerned about my low blood sugar. And my blood pressure has been through the roof lately.

Of course my glucose reading was okay, 79. And my blood pressure was okay. It never fails. Well, at least I take my health in my hands. It's been said that we are very aware of our bodies.

It's my life and I have to look after myself.

Chiflaco out.

Low Blood Sugar

Still having problems. The other day was so bad I was in bed most of the day. I did call Jeanne yesterday and got her input.

I am eating better. I'm actually having breakfast rather than my usual sweet yummy.  Still doing salads and having a nice dinner, although I eat early.

She was concerned of course and suggested I make an appointment with my doctor.

Chiflaco out.

Nutrionist

Went to see Jeanne, my nutritionist yesterday. I'm very concerned about my low blood sugar. I've been feeling bad and I get shaky and have a headache and perspire like there's no tomorrow.

She did say to start a food diary. I hate that because I usually embellish. I also didn't gain nor lose weight. I was surprised because I really pigged out last month.

I am scheduled for a glucose reading for my next labs next month. In the meantime, I will start eating right again.

Chiflaco out.

Happy New Year

Another year come and gone. Today would have been my sister's 74th birthday. She was taken at the young age of 47. I still miss her and still mourn her.

Eddie came over with some steaks that I put in the oven for 45 minutes. I also made baked potatoes and we had a nice dinner.

I also got stuck hosting Christmas dinner with Ed and Evelyn. Seems that I have a clean apartment ready for entertaining. And I hate the holidays. Too many bad memories.

Nothing much going on. I feel like I've gained 50 pounds. I do have an appointment to see my nutritionist to talk to her about my eating. For some reason I get low blood pressure and get dizzy and have headaches and the only way to feel better is to eat. And I have been pigging out like there's no tomorrow. 

Chiflado out.

I'm Back

I was having computer problems but I'm back. Sorry to the few people that read this blog.

Chiflado

Dr's Visit

Went to the doctor for lab results. My t-cell count went up surprisingly, 142 compared to 127 last quarter. I'm still undetectable which is good.

I updated my meds with him and he gave me some scripts for what's ailing moi. Of course I called the pharmacy and they hadn't received it yet. 

Called the clinic to see if they could  resend my scripts. They called it in and of course, they had to special order them. I should get them sometime tomorrow. 

Of course I'll be feeling a lot better tomorrow. I did go downstairs to Oasis for some chicken soup. I wolfed the whole thing. I immediately started feeling better. Broke my fever is what  it did.  I took a shower and had a great nap.

I'm feeling great. I will take my meds when I get them. I'll just save them until next time. 

Chiflado out. 

Ladies Who Lunch

Went to lunch with Mike and Tony Sunday. Eddie wasn't feeling well, he's got a sinus infection. Great I told him, that will give us something to talk about. LOL.

We went to Sam's Burger Joint on Grayson. I should mention that Eddie told me to get him a burger. Which I did out of the goodness of my heart. The selling point for me other than the yummy food is that they serve Pepsi. I had four!

We ate and laughed and talked about Eddie. He's such a character.  

Yesterday he was still under the weather. I called him every now and then to check up on him. He got angry with me telling me that  I text to much and call him a lot. 

He called me a few minutes later to apologize. Well, I will not be calling him anymore. 

Thanksgiving

Anybody that knows me know that I don't celebrate holidays. So what happened this year? I wound up hosting!

Eddie said if I didn't have plans I could go to his home and eat there. Okay said I. He shot for 2,00 p.m. I was happy with that. Then he said 4,00 p.m., long story short, we ate at 7,00 p.m.

Oh yeah, I forgot. He decided somewhere that we would eat in my home. Okay said I. And then he invited a neighbour as well. 

Everything went off okay. The mac and cheese was a bit overcooked, but everything else was okay. I made garlic mashed potatoes. He made the turkey, mac and cheese, and stuffing.

It was funny. Wednesday I went to get some things. Eddie gave me a short list of stuff to get. So there I was getting things and I had to call him several times to ask about the list. I felt like the husband calling the wife.

I've already said it, but if we do this again, he's gonna have to cook the turkey up here. That will cut into running around from home to home. 

I'm glad it's over.

Chiflaco out. 

Busy Day

I did a lot of running around today. I'm exhausted. Went to SAAF to pick up my bus pass for next month.

I forgot. I got all dolled up for my day. I wore jeans that fit, a thermal golden coloured shirt. Hot! Then I wore my winter coat that just looked fabulous on me. Then for the piece de resitance, I wore my beret. I did wear gloves but forgot the scarf. Oh well, too much on my plate. 

Came home for a bit. I didn't eat anything for lunch because I wasn't hungry. Then it was off to the clinic to see my new therapist. I always hate getting used to a new therapist. Lisa was cool. I talked about the depression, the adoption, and my Mom's death. A lot for day 1.

Then I went to Subway's and got a yummy sandwich. Came home and ate that for lunch/dinner. I got all comfy for the night. 

But no, she had other things to do. I went to HEB to get some things. It was a mad house. Tuesdays are usually busy  because of their coupons. Got off the bus and went in and out within 20 minutes. And I got the same bus going home. 

I forgot. This really made my day, month, year. I was at the clinic looking gorgeous and one of the receptionists said that I was looking good. Was it the beret? My head got even bigger.

Another thing I forgot. I went to see my nutritionist and I lost three pounds! She did ask me to take off my shoes and coat and beret. Great for my ego. 

All in all, I had a great day. I don't get many of those. I'm happy. I'm content. 

Chiflaco out. 

Kathy Griffin

Mike and I went to see Kathy Griffin the other night. OMG! What a riot. She was great as usual. Used the f-word, the p-word, and the c-word. 

She picked on everyone including Gov Perry. She also made the comment that I've said before. She said Kelly Clarkson is a better singer than Carrie Underwood. I think Kelly is more quality and Carrie is quantity. 

I had to go real bad I was laughing so much. But I didn't want to miss anything. I held it in and continued to laugh. 

Nice to get out of the house every now and then.

Chiflaco out. 

The Viewing

I'm still thinking about the rosary for my Mom. Very surreal. It's almost a blur. 

I sat with Barbara and Debra as usual. Mom looked good. They really did a good job. She really looked like she was asleep. They just had the viewing and a mass the next day. 

Honey, I worked to room. So many relatives that I haven't seen in like forever. They all knew me and congratulated on my thin look. They also noticed that I wasn't guerro anymore. 

My other niece went up and eulogized my Mom. She also said that my sister was a great caregiver. What? This is the woman that sent my Mom to a home. And did she visit? That's another story.

This woman was leading the rosary. She mentioned that Mom is survived by her son and daughter, and get this, an adopted son! I don't know but everyone I've told this to said that was uncalled for. But that's my family. Again, everybody knew but me. I did find out last year though. 

I still have Barbara and Debra as my family and I'm cool with it. 
This is one for therapy. 

Chiflaco out. 

Death

My Mom passed away last night. Good. She suffered a lot these past two years. 

Don't know any funeral details yet. But I'll be there. Wonder if I'll make a scene?

Chiflaco out. 

The Master of My Domain

The Love of My Life. Here's Jean-Luc posing on the love seat. He's in charge of my life. He's quite the character and he loves me a lot. 

Eddie and Victoria were over yesterday and she took this photo of JL. He loves to pose for the camera. He's not shy unlike me. He behaved while she was here, no biting. Of course he made a new friend. 

He is the Master of My Domain. I'm his human and he knows it. He follows me everywhere and makes sure that I'm there for him. Duh!

He naps with me and is now waiting in bed for me. I just had to post this photo of my baby. 

Chiflaco out. 

Hospitals

What a weekend! First Betty's funeral. I get along with their family than I do with my family. It was great seeing them and we had that rapport that makes one family.

Now Debra's in the hospital. She had hives and had a high glucose reading. She's doing great and wants to go home. She also wants to go back to work.

While visiting her tonight, we got a call saying my Mom was in ICU. It was sad seeing her in such pain. They're gonna put her in a morphine drip and they are talking hospice. I hope she dies because she's suffered a lot.

Will keep you posted.

Chiflaco out. 

Betty

Betty was Debra's mother-in-law. She passed away Tuesday and her funeral is today. 

Betty was a cool lady. She was okay with my gayness and we had a fun and loving rapport. She's been in and out of the hospital for the past few years. I hate to say it, but I'm glad she past away so she won't have to suffer anymore. 

Barbara's gonna pick me up in about an hour for the funeral. I will miss Betty a lot. She had a great sense of humour and we loved to pick on each other. 

Chiflaco out. 

Ambien

For some reason, Humana will only authorize a 90 day supply of Ambien. I need this to sleep. So the clinic authorized a script to another pharmacy. It was out of my way but worth the trip.

Now I have to go to the CentroMed pharmacy on Zarzamora. It's a long trip and takes up most of the day. I was lucky because they revamped their system and I was able to pick it up within an hour and a half. This is quick folks.

All told, I took seven trollies and buses. I left here at 8,00 and got back at 1 p.m. I was a stressed and tired puppy. But I can sleep well for another 30 days.

Chiflaco out. 

Ladies Who Lunch

Went to lunch with Mike and Tony yesterday. When I suggested lunch, Mike asked if he should bring his ball and chain. I said sure and I'll bring mine! That would be Eddie.

We had a nice visit together. Went to Luther's where everything was quite tasty. Eddie and I were talking and nitpicking each other. Tony asked how did we wind up married before they did. LOL. 

Looking forward to the next time. 

Chiflaco out. 

Food Stamps

Interesting. I was getting $16 in food stamps for the month. What with all that's happening in Washington, I will now get $15 a month. 

Is it worth it? Every little bit helps. It's not much but I will use it. Hopefully someone in the know will notice and give me more. And I will win the lottery.

Chiflaco out.