The Man in the Mirror

Okay, I've lost some weight. I can actually see my ribs. But I do have a spare tire. Is that correct?

So we went to visit Mom at the nursing home. She looks so different, I almost walked by her.

So there I was with her in her wheel chair. I walk with her some times. I asked Debra and Barbara to take a photos of us so that they can put it in Facebook.

When I saw us in the mirror, I could not recognize myself. I look so different. That's the man in the mirror. I just wonder what is next. In the mean time, I won't do anything for a time.

Chiflado

Schlepping

Yesterday was a busy day for me. Talk about the Energizer Bunny.

After breakfast, I went phone shopping. I lost my cell again, that's three this year. So I went to Sprint to check out the phones.

Typical me I went straight to the great phones, but like I'm gonna spend beaucoup d'argent. I got a lot of information.

So I found the one I wanted and of course they were out of stock. So I got on the Looper which goes around the city to South Park.

I finally found something to satisfy me. At least the buses were on schedule.

So now I have another phone to keep in touch with the world. I came home and added the phone numbers for everyone.

And I got to see my next purchase. Ever since this started, I have not been able to tie a shoe lace, it's just impossible so I gave all my fabulous shoes to a guy in group. He was happy.

I have to make due with a cheap pair from Wal-Mart. The shoes I want costs 99.00 which I don't have now but will next month.

I forgot where else I went, but I was fatigued and came home around 3,00 or thereabouts. And now that I'm happy for now, I had to lay down, but I didn't sleep. I was just too exhausted.

I also found the love seat I want. I have the futon but it takes so much space. I'm gonna Craig's List things I have to get rid off. The glass pub table with matching seats. And I'm getting rid of my Sponge Bob collection. Ouch. But I need the moolah.

Layter Gayter. Chiflado

Appetite

Can't explain the loss of appetite for me. I'm just not hungry. I'm down to cawfee for breakfast and
a danish or bagel and a bagel  for dinner. Lunch is usually rabbit food, salad.

I know I should be eating more, but I'm just not hungry. I'm getting to the point that I will eat when I get hungry.

I cheated and had chilaquiles for breakfast and a salad around six or so. I wasn't hungry but knew I had to eat something because of the meds.

Chiflado out.

Joel

Yesterday would have been Joel's 52nd birthday. He was my high school sweetheart. We were friends and then we were lovers. We wound up as great friends.

I remember how we cried when he found out he's HIV positive. All I have are memories of him. We had our differences but we would always come back to us.

Joel died of AIDS back in 2002 or around that time. I kinda wanted to get together and live our lives together. But the Grim Reaper came and took him from me.

I was in Michigan when he passed. His partner wrote me about it and we picked clothes for him to wear. I also gave him a heads up on his favourite music.

I was unable to come to SA to say good-byes because Steve wouldn't let me go. Creep.

I miss him still.

Chiflado

Mad Money

So I'm looking at my acount and I have some money. I wonder where, but then I remembered that I slept most of February. Which meant not as much groceries as usual.

That means I can do something fun for me. Since I have extra moola, I will do something for me. I kinda have an idea what I want, but I'll know for sure shortly.

Chiflaco

PS. Mess gave me that nickname. Chiflado plus weight loss, he combined Chiflad plus flaco for the weight loss equals Chiflaco.

Dr's Visit

That time of the year. All my organs are okay and I lost 10 lbs, fabulous. Got to say hello to Jeannie the nutritionist. She worries for me.

Also got my tetanus shot. Love how they treat me at the clinic. They keep me up to date for everything.

Almost forgot. I got 10 more t-cells up to 114, up from 104. That's a slight hurrah.

Chiflado out.

Over?

I wonder if it's over. Yesterday and so far, today, I have not napped. Today I actually did not nap this morning. I have a doctor's appointment. We'll see what my labs say.

Also, HP is doing great. He sounds a whole lot better. He's in Kerrville at his parent's home. Say a prayer for him.

Chiflaco

Diet

No I'm not on a diet per se. The weight keeps on coming off on it's own.

Right now I'm having cawfee and a danish for breakfast. Lunch is usually a chicken salad and dinner is a bagel or something light.

That's what I eat at home. I do pig out when I'm at a restaurant or buffet.

And the weight comes off. I do think about wasting, but I would think it would come off quicker. I do have an appointment with my nutritionist Wednesday for my official weigh in. She is worried that I'm losing weight fast.

Today I only had breakfast and lunch. I'm not usually hungry at dinner time but I do have a bagel or toast.

I just know that I like the weight disappearing. What I like about it is that it makes me look younger. I was talking to someone the other day and he thought I was in my 30's. He just might get a lucky thank you from me.

Chiffie out.

Again

This is an again for me and Hush Puppy.

Just when things were going great, I fell down again. I was walking across a parking lot when I fell landing on my knees. The left knee is almost the same as when I fell before. I got a scrape on my right knee that really hurts.

HP's again. He's in the hospital again. This time it's an abscess in his right foot. Poor baby, and I haven't been able to go visit because of my sleeping and dizzy spells.

And it's off to La La Land for this sicko.

Chiflado

Sleeping

A few weeks ago, I was getting up from the futon and Jean Luc ran in front of me and I lost my balance and ended up on my stomach.

I felt okay but two days later I felt the pain. And then the sleeping started. I get my 8 hours but I was sleeping 6 or more hours. And that's been my schedule ever since.

I wake up have cawfee and go back to sleep. Then I wake up have something to eat and it's back to sleeping.

I haven't even checked email or updated this blog. I'm still sleeping a lot. Although today I had a little energy, so I'm hoping it's over and done with by now.

Chiffie out.

Fatigued

I had a lot of running around the past three days. It caught up with me yesterday. I lay down for a nap at  2 p.m. and woke up at 6 p.m. I didn't know just how tired I was.

Yesterday's nap was much needed. My body telling me that I need to slow down.

And then today I was full of energy and swept, mopped, vacuumed, and scrubbed the tub. I was a busy bee.

I'm tired again and will take it slower.

Chiffie out.

Jeans

Last Friday I went to Wal-Mart to see if I could find a pair of jeans that fit. As luck would have it, I forgot which pair fit right. So I took a pair home. Of course this did not fit.

I went Saturday to return these and find one that fits. I found three pairs and tried them on. Really I stopped looking as I tried one that fit.

I was happy at long last. I've been wearing sweats for the past two years. Monday Moi and HP got together and he asked about the jeans.

I got let down when they started to fall down. I figured that maybe if I wash them the would shrink some. They did but only a little. I guess I'll wear these until I drop another pant size. 

Chiflado

Co-Pays

Who knew there was so much work for a person with disability? It's a lot of work to keep tabs on things.

Today I went to an agency and updated my file. It looks like they will help out with my co-pays. I made the mistake of following directions. There are co-pays for medicine and another for appointments.

I followed everything only to find out that this particular agency only handles co-pays for meds.
Today they said they can handle co-pays for meds and for appointments. Wish they can make up their minds.

I don't work anymore and I have to keep tabs on what is going on with me. I don't know if I can count on this agency.

Tuesday I went to another agency who will pay for my appointments. Hopefully they will help me after all.

Chiff out.

Again?

Just when it was safe to go in, I fell on my fat ass. It was Friday. I had just taken my trash to the dumpster.

I was wearing my tongs and the left side got stuck in the door. So there I was looking at me fall down from a distance again.

Chiffie out.

Jean-Luc

Jean-Luc is my spoiled feline. The other day when I was helping HP move, I left my baby alone for the night.

When I got home, he was so happy to see me and he did the happy dance for me. Poor baby missed me.

He's very attached to me. He's been near me all this time, more so than usual. When I nap, he does also. 

When I sit on the futon, he jumps up in my lap and starts purring, and then he curls next to me for another nap.

When I sit in the recliner, he jumps up again and then he climbs up and lays on the top of the chair. He sees his world from there.

When I'm at the computer, he jumps in my lap. He hates it when I'm at the computer or when I'm on the phone, that's time for him and nobody else.

We have a great time with each other. He's been a lucky puss. I just know we're happy together.

Happy Holidays.

Chiffie out.

Cane

I've been very adventurous and have walked with out my cane. So far so good.

HP is trying to walk  without any help. The guy is anxious to get on with life. He uses the boot and uses a cane of his own.

The bell is rung sending all students to recess and we can start groups. I have my eye on a topaz ring.

Chiffie out.

Canas

Sorry I don't write everyday. Everything is redundant from one day to another.

Canas is Spanish for white hair. This was the reason I shaved off my beard, which had more white in it. Plus it makes me look younger.

So we all grow grey hair here and there. What threw me for a loop is that I found some canas in my eyebrows.

I do like the salt and pepper look and my barber left some sideburns with some canas. Looks very appealing. I must be Jewish because I have that look in my temples!

Chiflado out

Clinic Rounds

I had a busy day today. I went to the clinic and I went from one person to the other.

First in line, was the nutritionist who is concerned I'm not eating much, hence the weight loss. She also gave me some Glucerna and some vitamins.

Next was with my doctor. My t-cell count went up from 104 to 114. It's a small  step on the Yellow Brick Road.

After lunch I went back for the last visit du jour. I met up with Dr K who was my therapist. Big news is she's leaving the clinic for private practice. She's working until the end of the month. We talked about me and my concerns. It was a bitter sweet moment for us. Now I have to break in a new therapist in January.

Chiffie out.

Down-sizing

Okay, so I'm loosing weight. Nothing new there. Since I've started going to the clinic, I have lost 91 lbs. Jeanne is concerned because I lost 40 since the last time I saw her.

The other thing is I'm not as tall as I used to be. I used to say I'm 6'2. Well, now it seems I'm 6'1 or 6'0. I'm shrinking. Oh well, what's a girl to do? Wonder how much more I'll loose.

Chiffie out.

Paul Rudd

Just a photo of Paul I like. He looks hot in this photo. No reason, guess I wanted to  liven up my blog.