21 April 2013

Saturday

Just another Saturday. Went to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. Of course there were some missing, so I came home to see what's what. I called them and told them which were missing. So I'll pick them during the week, Wednesday's my usual pharmacy/library run so I'll get them then.

I called in to get a 3-month supply but apparently Humana only does 1-month at a time. I talked to Humana and they said I can mail order my meds. Now I need the 3-month supply from mail order.

And then comes the part I hate, sorting my meds. I really don't like this job but then I don't have any help. Like I said earlier, I can just give up all my meds and wait for the Grim Reaper. What's the point.

Jean Luc has been needy again. Don't know what's wrong with him, but I am concerned that he pulls at his coat. There are clumps of cat hair all over the place.

Last month I had the carpet cleaners and they did a great job. They had a carpet rake to pick up all the fur. Where can I get one?

I stayed home all day after the pharmacy run. And last night they had a fireworks display. Why? I finally decided it's a Fiesta thing. Yep that time of year again. Another reason to say home.

Such is my life.

Chiffie out.

18 April 2013

Jean Luc

Jean Luc has apparently gotten the hint from me about eating. Lately he hasn't been eating his food.

Today he was very needy. He fell asleep on my lap and of course I won't disturb him. He's my baby and I love him no matter what.

And he hates it when I get on the computer. All the attention has to be his. He's such a character. He reminds me of exes I've had to deal with.

Right now he's napping on his bed by the computer. Of course I won't disturb him and he has food before I run out of the old bag. He'll always have food ready, even my food can wait. He's my sweetheart and I have to spoil him. He's a chiflado cat. And I love him.

Chiffie out.

Hunger

I've been having eating problems lately. I am not hungry most of the day and eat breakfast and lunch.

I got home and started calling around for help. I also contacted my case manager, Robert, for help. He gave me phone numbers that might help. They didn't.

I had coffee this morning and that kept me until around 4,00 p.m. I wasn't hungry, just wanted to get that out of the way. And then I got hungry tonight so I ate some crackers to get me through the night.

I am looking forward to breakfast already.

Chiff out.

Dr's Visit

Went to my neurologist today. Nothing to report just went in to get a prescription.

It was cold today. I went out in shorts and it was really freezing. I looked forward to get on the bus which had the heater going.

Chiffie out.

17 April 2013

Physical Therapy 2

I cancelled pt today. I still have not heard from any of the agencies. I just don't have the money. I'm gonna call around tomorrow and Friday. 

I've lived with this pain for months and I can go another month or two.

I just wish these people would get their act together. We'll see what tomorrow brings.

Chiffie out.

16 April 2013

Physical Therapy

I start physical therapy on my right shoulder. It just woke up one day and it hurts like hell.

I hopefully have an agency to pay for it. These agencies promise the moon and don't deliver. I have to jump through hoops to get this.

Then they say I have to fill out paperwork to get it going. I wish these people would make up their minds. I need financial help and I hope they deliver.

I found great service with Snowdon Orthopedic and Occupational Rehabilitation. I had knee problems last year and it really helped. I don't walk with a cane anymore. Although I do use it when my knee hurts.

Speaking of which, I also have an appointment with a podiatrist Monday. My feet have been hurting forever. And looks like I have fungus in my toenails. I just want to stop hurting. It really hurts to walk sometimes.

We'll see what happens.

Chiffie out.



15 April 2013

Ramblings

What have I been up to lately? Like why haven't updated my blog?

Went to lunch with Doug the other day. He invited Harry along. I've met Harry before and they didn't remember me! I always make an impression but I guess I failed with Harry.

Went to lunch yesterday with Mike. We hadn't seen each other in a week. But we do keep in touch via phone or email. We then went to HEB to get litter and cat food. Like I can carry them on the bus! We came home and he did his taxes while I slept.

Lately I've been waking up shaking and clammy. I've also had night sweats. I was still unwell when he came by to pick me up. Don't know how I showered because I felt like I was gonna fall over any minute.

Today I stayed home and did paperwork and phone calls. Who said being sick meant paperwork? I have to keep on top of things all the time.

My feet have been hurting more than usual. I do have neuropathy in both feet, the numbing not the pain, so I guess I'm lucky? I even hurt when I'm home. I keep myself from tripping on my feet even at home.

My right shoulder woke up in pain these past few months. While I was doing my physical therapy on my left knee, they also checked out my shoulder and they said wow. I know some one's who's gonna have a great vacation. I have a co-pay that I'm hoping somebody helps out.

Last time with my knee pt, one of the agencies I go to promised they'd pay. NOT! Now I'm stuck with the bill, but I've started paying of on it. I've been in touch with another agency who said they'd help me. We'll see. I just want to be normal again.

I'm also getting rid of some stuff on Craigs List. The futon is sofa size and it takes up a lot of room. I didn't know it was that big when I bought it from Sid last year.

Then I have a pub table with two chairs and a wine rack. And then there's my SpongeBob tins. I've been a fan forever. All I can say is keep your fingers crossed.

Other than that, life trudges along a step at a time. There are things on my back burner I must attend to.

That's about it. Although did anybody see the American Country Music Awards last week? Miranda Lambert wore a very revealing dress. I swear I almost saw her nipples. I'm still having nightmares. LOL.

Tomorrow means more phone calls. And I might swing by Wal-Mart for some clothes. I wear nothing but black shorts and t's.

Guess that's about it.

Chiffie out.

11 April 2013

Sleepless in SA

I have not sleeping well at all lately. I go to bed and toss and turn for a while. Nothing.

So I get up and watch a movie or two hoping to fall asleep. Nada.

Then I wind up going back to bed around 5 or 6 a.m. or so. That throws me out of whack. Then I spend the day in bed trying to make up for the night before.

I hate this. I feel like I'm drunk for my waking hours. Someday I'll be normal again.

Chiffie out.

09 April 2013

Fitted Sheets

Who the hell invented this mess? The fitted sheet is supposed to fit around the mattress. Yeah right.

We get one corner okay. Then we try to get the rest to fit and the thing just collapses all around you. I hate this.

Then I got a brilliant idea. My mattress is queen sized so I got a king set and I'm partially satisfied.

Target has sets made out of flannel. And I just fell for the flannel. Nice and comfy and good year round, not just for winter.

Chiffie out.

01 April 2013

Dental

Went to the dentist today. He yanked two teeth today. I really feel no pain hard to believe.

A word about my dentist, HOT! Sandy blond hair, blue eyes, and nice hairy chest. He actually remembered me from two years ago. He said I'm looking better. He remembered me.

I go in for a cleaning and he's gonna give me a partial. Did I say HOT?! He's a major babe. Can hardly wait.

Chiffie out.

HP Update

Hush Puppy is back home. A few months ago they amputated a toe on his left foot. Then he gets an abscess in his right foot. When it rains...

I haven't seen him in two months. Whenever he has something wrong, he recuperates at his parents' home in Kerrville.

And he sounds in good spirits. We're planning a late breakfast early lunch. We haven't decided yet.

Chiflado out.

20 March 2013

Frustrated

How often have I felt this. Why bother? I could stop taking my meds and wait for the Sandman.

I was on the phone today talking with everybody and it just frustrated the hell of me. What's the point? I'm nobody in a plethora of AIDS patients.

Plus I felt the depression slowly make a return appearance. Hello? It's here tonight and I don't know how this one will go. I did sleep through February, what's another month?

I spent the rest of the day crying and under the covers. I just want to get in a fetal position and let it do it's magic.

I will survive, but why?

Chiflado

19 March 2013

Therapist Pt 2

I went to go see another therapist to see which of the two I would prefer.

I kinda like this therapist I saw today. He seemed more suited for me. And I would be able to see him once a week as opposed to yesterday's therapist and see her once a month.

I'm getting more bang for the buck with him. I'll see how things develop.

Chiflado out


18 March 2013

Therapist

I got a new therapist today. I had to break her in. We talked a lot of things. Yes I'm depressed, but at least the meds help.

Don't know what I'd do without them. We talked about some wounds that I carry. I'm still shocked at the picture with Maya.

I just don't know the stranger in the mirror. It's still haunting me. I see the difference in the photos. I just do not look that sick. I guess it's part of AIDS.

The plus part is that my funeral is arranged. I'm just waiting to use this.

I do think about suicide a lot, now more than ever. I will not kill myself because I do not have the courage to follow through. And that depresses me even more.

But I move on.

Chiflado

17 March 2013

Hulu

Yesterday I spent all day catching up on Glee. Yeah, I have no life.

Don't know what to do to get outta this mood. Yeah, the meds are the to even out my mind. I did an experiment and stayed away from the blog.

Also got to catch up on SMASH on NBC. This is a fun show the faggots are looking at right now. I'm a fan. Highly recommend this series.

Chiflado

13 March 2013

Schlepping Pt 2

More walking. Yesterday I ran around all over the southside. I was the Energy Bunny.

Went to the bank and took care of a couple of things. Followed by the place for my physical therapy.

Had a salad and then on whim, I went to Wal-Mart. Bought a pair of jeans that actually fit. As luck would have it, I found a couple of other things.

This was at 5 p.m. Then went by the deli to get a sandwich I was in no way gonna cook. It was delicious.

Again I say, I am on disability and have problems
getting around. Long story short, I got home at 7 p.m. Then I took a nice long shower. I was ready for bed. Whew. The Energy Bunny was very tired.

Chiflado

11 March 2013

Modern Family

I try to avoid stuff on the TV. I just do not want to get involved with any show. Well, I got into this one.

I get each season from the Library and it's also available in Netflix.

This show is hilarious. Don't know why I decided on this. Worth watching.

Chiflado

The Man in the Mirror

Okay, I've lost some weight. I can actually see my ribs. But I do have a spare tire. Is that correct?

So we went to visit Mom at the nursing home. She looks so different, I almost walked by her.

So there I was with her in her wheel chair. I walk with her some times. I asked Debra and Barbara to take a photos of us so that they can put it in Facebook.

When I saw us in the mirror, I could not recognize myself. I look so different. That's the man in the mirror. I just wonder what is next. In the mean time, I won't do anything for a time.

Chiflado

09 March 2013

Schlepping

Yesterday was a busy day for me. Talk about the Energizer Bunny.

After breakfast, I went phone shopping. I lost my cell again, that's three this year. So I went to Sprint to check out the phones.

Typical me I went straight to the great phones, but like I'm gonna spend beaucoup d'argent. I got a lot of information.

So I found the one I wanted and of course they were out of stock. So I got on the Looper which goes around the city to South Park.

I finally found something to satisfy me. At least the buses were on schedule.

So now I have another phone to keep in touch with the world. I came home and added the phone numbers for everyone.

And I got to see my next purchase. Ever since this started, I have not been able to tie a shoe lace, it's just impossible so I gave all my fabulous shoes to a guy in group. He was happy.

I have to make due with a cheap pair from Wal-Mart. The shoes I want costs 99.00 which I don't have now but will next month.

I forgot where else I went, but I was fatigued and came home around 3,00 or thereabouts. And now that I'm happy for now, I had to lay down, but I didn't sleep. I was just too exhausted.

I also found the love seat I want. I have the futon but it takes so much space. I'm gonna Craig's List things I have to get rid off. The glass pub table with matching seats. And I'm getting rid of my Sponge Bob collection. Ouch. But I need the moolah.

Layter Gayter. Chiflado

02 March 2013

Appetite

Can't explain the loss of appetite for me. I'm just not hungry. I'm down to cawfee for breakfast and
a danish or bagel and a bagel  for dinner. Lunch is usually rabbit food, salad.

I know I should be eating more, but I'm just not hungry. I'm getting to the point that I will eat when I get hungry.

I cheated and had chilaquiles for breakfast and a salad around six or so. I wasn't hungry but knew I had to eat something because of the meds.

Chiflado out.

Joel

Yesterday would have been Joel's 52nd birthday. He was my high school sweetheart. We were friends and then we were lovers. We wound up as great friends.

I remember how we cried when he found out he's HIV positive. All I have are memories of him. We had our differences but we would always come back to us.

Joel died of AIDS back in 2002 or around that time. I kinda wanted to get together and live our lives together. But the Grim Reaper came and took him from me.

I was in Michigan when he passed. His partner wrote me about it and we picked clothes for him to wear. I also gave him a heads up on his favourite music.

I was unable to come to SA to say good-byes because Steve wouldn't let me go. Creep.

I miss him still.

Chiflado

28 February 2013

Mad Money

So I'm looking at my acount and I have some money. I wonder where, but then I remembered that I slept most of February. Which meant not as much groceries as usual.

That means I can do something fun for me. Since I have extra moola, I will do something for me. I kinda have an idea what I want, but I'll know for sure shortly.

Chiflaco

PS. Mess gave me that nickname. Chiflado plus weight loss, he combined Chiflad plus flaco for the weight loss equals Chiflaco.

Dr's Visit

That time of the year. All my organs are okay and I lost 10 lbs, fabulous. Got to say hello to Jeannie the nutritionist. She worries for me.

Also got my tetanus shot. Love how they treat me at the clinic. They keep me up to date for everything.

Almost forgot. I got 10 more t-cells up to 114, up from 104. That's a slight hurrah.

Chiflado out.

27 February 2013

Over?

I wonder if it's over. Yesterday and so far, today, I have not napped. Today I actually did not nap this morning. I have a doctor's appointment. We'll see what my labs say.

Also, HP is doing great. He sounds a whole lot better. He's in Kerrville at his parent's home. Say a prayer for him.

Chiflaco

25 February 2013

Diet

No I'm not on a diet per se. The weight keeps on coming off on it's own.

Right now I'm having cawfee and a danish for breakfast. Lunch is usually a chicken salad and dinner is a bagel or something light.

That's what I eat at home. I do pig out when I'm at a restaurant or buffet.

And the weight comes off. I do think about wasting, but I would think it would come off quicker. I do have an appointment with my nutritionist Wednesday for my official weigh in. She is worried that I'm losing weight fast.

Today I only had breakfast and lunch. I'm not usually hungry at dinner time but I do have a bagel or toast.

I just know that I like the weight disappearing. What I like about it is that it makes me look younger. I was talking to someone the other day and he thought I was in my 30's. He just might get a lucky thank you from me.

Chiffie out.

21 February 2013

Again

This is an again for me and Hush Puppy.

Just when things were going great, I fell down again. I was walking across a parking lot when I fell landing on my knees. The left knee is almost the same as when I fell before. I got a scrape on my right knee that really hurts.

HP's again. He's in the hospital again. This time it's an abscess in his right foot. Poor baby, and I haven't been able to go visit because of my sleeping and dizzy spells.

And it's off to La La Land for this sicko.

Chiflado

14 February 2013

Sleeping

A few weeks ago, I was getting up from the futon and Jean Luc ran in front of me and I lost my balance and ended up on my stomach.

I felt okay but two days later I felt the pain. And then the sleeping started. I get my 8 hours but I was sleeping 6 or more hours. And that's been my schedule ever since.

I wake up have cawfee and go back to sleep. Then I wake up have something to eat and it's back to sleeping.

I haven't even checked email or updated this blog. I'm still sleeping a lot. Although today I had a little energy, so I'm hoping it's over and done with by now.

Chiffie out.

20 January 2013

Fatigued

I had a lot of running around the past three days. It caught up with me yesterday. I lay down for a nap at  2 p.m. and woke up at 6 p.m. I didn't know just how tired I was.

Yesterday's nap was much needed. My body telling me that I need to slow down.

And then today I was full of energy and swept, mopped, vacuumed, and scrubbed the tub. I was a busy bee.

I'm tired again and will take it slower.

Chiffie out.

19 January 2013

Jeans

Last Friday I went to Wal-Mart to see if I could find a pair of jeans that fit. As luck would have it, I forgot which pair fit right. So I took a pair home. Of course this did not fit.

I went Saturday to return these and find one that fits. I found three pairs and tried them on. Really I stopped looking as I tried one that fit.

I was happy at long last. I've been wearing sweats for the past two years. Monday Moi and HP got together and he asked about the jeans.

I got let down when they started to fall down. I figured that maybe if I wash them the would shrink some. They did but only a little. I guess I'll wear these until I drop another pant size. 

Chiflado

10 January 2013

Co-Pays

Who knew there was so much work for a person with disability? It's a lot of work to keep tabs on things.

Today I went to an agency and updated my file. It looks like they will help out with my co-pays. I made the mistake of following directions. There are co-pays for medicine and another for appointments.

I followed everything only to find out that this particular agency only handles co-pays for meds.
Today they said they can handle co-pays for meds and for appointments. Wish they can make up their minds.

I don't work anymore and I have to keep tabs on what is going on with me. I don't know if I can count on this agency.

Tuesday I went to another agency who will pay for my appointments. Hopefully they will help me after all.

Chiff out.

02 January 2013

Again?

Just when it was safe to go in, I fell on my fat ass. It was Friday. I had just taken my trash to the dumpster.

I was wearing my tongs and the left side got stuck in the door. So there I was looking at me fall down from a distance again.

Chiffie out.

25 December 2012

Jean-Luc

Jean-Luc is my spoiled feline. The other day when I was helping HP move, I left my baby alone for the night.

When I got home, he was so happy to see me and he did the happy dance for me. Poor baby missed me.

He's very attached to me. He's been near me all this time, more so than usual. When I nap, he does also. 

When I sit on the futon, he jumps up in my lap and starts purring, and then he curls next to me for another nap.

When I sit in the recliner, he jumps up again and then he climbs up and lays on the top of the chair. He sees his world from there.

When I'm at the computer, he jumps in my lap. He hates it when I'm at the computer or when I'm on the phone, that's time for him and nobody else.

We have a great time with each other. He's been a lucky puss. I just know we're happy together.

Happy Holidays.

Chiffie out.



16 December 2012

Cane

I've been very adventurous and have walked with out my cane. So far so good.

HP is trying to walk  without any help. The guy is anxious to get on with life. He uses the boot and uses a cane of his own.

The bell is rung sending all students to recess and we can start groups. I have my eye on a topaz ring.

Chiffie out.

Canas

Sorry I don't write everyday. Everything is redundant from one day to another.

Canas is Spanish for white hair. This was the reason I shaved off my beard, which had more white in it. Plus it makes me look younger.

So we all grow grey hair here and there. What threw me for a loop is that I found some canas in my eyebrows.

I do like the salt and pepper look and my barber left some sideburns with some canas. Looks very appealing. I must be Jewish because I have that look in my temples!

Chiflado out

04 December 2012

Clinic Rounds

I had a busy day today. I went to the clinic and I went from one person to the other.

First in line, was the nutritionist who is concerned I'm not eating much, hence the weight loss. She also gave me some Glucerna and some vitamins.

Next was with my doctor. My t-cell count went up from 104 to 114. It's a small  step on the Yellow Brick Road.

After lunch I went back for the last visit du jour. I met up with Dr K who was my therapist. Big news is she's leaving the clinic for private practice. She's working until the end of the month. We talked about me and my concerns. It was a bitter sweet moment for us. Now I have to break in a new therapist in January.

Chiffie out.

02 December 2012

Down-sizing

Okay, so I'm loosing weight. Nothing new there. Since I've started going to the clinic, I have lost 91 lbs. Jeanne is concerned because I lost 40 since the last time I saw her.

The other thing is I'm not as tall as I used to be. I used to say I'm 6'2. Well, now it seems I'm 6'1 or 6'0. I'm shrinking. Oh well, what's a girl to do? Wonder how much more I'll loose.

Chiffie out.

29 November 2012

Paul Rudd

Just a photo of Paul I like. He looks hot in this photo. No reason, guess I wanted to  liven up my blog.

24 November 2012

New Med

Today I started my new med. It's four meds in one tablet. I will have less pills to take. Wahoo! I am taking 4 pills away from my usual. Yes I am glad.

I did have to override this pill. I had a bottle before, but Lupe hid it. I just have to move everything to see if it's there.

Chiffie out.

22 November 2012

Thursday

So this is another holiday to avoid. I had my morning pot of cawfee. Then I took my fat ass to a movie. Don't even remember the last time I ventured out.

I saw the final installment of the The Twilight saga. Of course I read the books and they were phenomenal. I was not let down but I still felt the books were better.

Then I came home to my holiday meal. I bought a steak that marinated all night long. It was too good and actually ate the whole thing. I had wanted to save some for Friday.

That's it. Come and gone. Just another Thursday. I will repeat the same all over again. This is my usual holiday meal.

Chiffie out.

20 November 2012

Wtf?!!

This is very strange. I was gonna write about my weight loss and other stuff. Problem is that this was written earlier. Wonder if Lupe's up to his old tricks.

I just went yesterday to the clinic. Everything in the previous blog and everything was accurate. Jeanne is very concerned about me. I'm just excited. 40 lbs is very true, but I want more...and I'm gonna do it.

Why don't I work out at the Y? Because I fall a lot and I might hurt myself. I'll see about some other places to work out.

I guess I'm done with this blog and try to get hold of Lupe.

Chiffie out

11 November 2012

Chiflado Update

So here I am. D&B say I don't need the gastric surgery. I do like what I see in the mirror. So I cancelled the surgery.

So I have lost some weight. Jeanne our nutritionist,is concerned because I lost 40 lbs since our last appointment. I'm okay with it, I want some more weight down the drain.

Chiflado has been in bed not wanting to be seen.
The weight is okay with it. Problem is, my clothes fit real loose. It's embarrassing because my clothes do not fit. There I'll be and when I least expect it, my shorts or jeans creep down, showing a side of Chiflado normaly see by lucky gentlemen callers . That's a treat if ever there was nothing.

I have found some jeans at Wal-Mart of all places that fit me. Same for my tighty whitise current undies do not fit either and tend to roll down. Just now I took some trash out and they rolled down. I looked and no one saw this one.

I finally found some at Wal-Mart that fit but they usually come in different colours. I want all black undies and they're usually in a package, but all I get stuck with are all the multi-coloured chones.

So, I'm okay with the colours, like I have a choice. Also found some at Target, and black, but I have no say in this. So Chiflado is content for the time being.

Chiffie out.

01 November 2012

Dr's Visit

Yesterday I went to the doctor's to get my test results. I have 104 t-cell count, but I'm still undetectable, that's the news.

I don't know why my CD-4 keeps slowly disappearing. I'm doing the same things as before, I haven't change anything.

This on top of my depression. What next? I'm sick and tired it just drops away.

I've been battling depression as it is. I felt it coming and here it is. I'm dealing with one bad set of news and here comes another. And you wonder why I am like this. I'm sick and tired of everything, t-cells and all my meds. I just want to take all my meds and call it a night.

But I continue, I'm the cockroach that keeps coming. I just want it to end. I tell my nurse and she asked if I had a plan, so many people do and I'm one of them.

Sometimes I think okay and then I get some news that bring me down and I can swallow all the pills I have and abort me out of my life.

Don't worry.

Chiffie out.

25 October 2012

Hush Puppy

So there I was, watching TV the other night. And Hush Puppy is one of the gay couple in the new show Partners, Our Hush Puppy is okay.

Recently our HP has been hospitalized with several different malaise's. This last time he was hospitalized for his foot. The doctor wound up amputating HP's little toe.

He took it in stride. Poor guy is on crutches for a few months. They have started skin grafting and HP and the doctor said it was okay.

Thanks for the prayers for him.

Chiffie out.



14 October 2012

Depression

I felt it last week. And it arrived yesterday. I don't know if anybody feels it like I do.

Depression. Didn't catch me off guard. I saw it coming. And here it is. I've been spending my day in bed. I just lie there and stare at the ceiling or wall, depends on how I'm lying down at the time.

Maybe that's why I'm not eating. Yesterday I only ate once. Today I had toast and cawfee and that's it. So far ditto for today. I do think I will eat something in a while to take my meds.

Hopefully ya'll are in a good place today.

Chiffie out.

Physical Therapy

I'm doing physical therapy for my knee. So far so good. I normally wear an ace bandage on my knee. Since I've started PT, I don't have to wear that bandage. I have to have PT for my shoulder and I'm starting that this week.

Ya'll know how I love noses. There's this doctor that has a sexy nose and other things as well. I did notice that he had a pair of shoes that use velcro rather than shoe strings. I was hoping he got them here, turns out he got them in Vegas.

I have thought about checking SAS shoes to see what they have. I can't deal with shoe strings anymore. When I tie the shoe strings, I don't have the strength to tie a good knot.

Chif out.

07 October 2012

Arm

HP and I think the shoulder pain is from my fall. It's really amazing how I survived. I really could have broken something or drop dead, but I made it okay.

I guess my guardian angel really did a good job of protecting me.

Before I forget, I have something weird with my torso. There's like a fungus or something that has me concerned. My arms from hand to shoulder, and stomach have this thing.

Dr M gave me some lotion that works on skin and I've a lot of skin to worry about. I did get a referral to see a dermatologist so I have to call and make an appointment. First on my to do list tomorrow.

Chiff out.

06 October 2012

Right Arm

The latest thing is a pain in my right shoulder. The pain starts at the front and quickly goes through my arm.

Dr M gave me some meds for the pain. It's not working. I tried all the meds and nothing worked.  I want a pill that works. It's just a band aid for a bigger problem.

Chiffie out.

Mental Health Day

I went to see my new psychiatrist  and went to my therapist the other day.

I'm okay with both of them. I have a new psychiatrist because the other was Dr J. He is absolutely gorgeous, always has a smile for everyone.

It's interesting how a therapist remember me. We picked up right where I was last. Dr K is good people and has helped me through a lot.

Chiffie out.

27 September 2012

HP Update

HP, he's my BFFF. That's straight out of Pineapple Express.

He's still on crutches and it's murder going up the one floor. We're delicate creatures and we expect nothing but the best.

Now his doctor's saying if he doesn't get better, they might have to amputate the foot. Of course I want that he gets better and keeps the foot.

Please keep HP in your prayers and think positive thoughts.

Chiffie out.

26 September 2012

Me

Enough about HP, now about moi.

Ever since my tumble down the stairs keeps haunting me. I still cannot believe I fell down the stairs with my walker.

They said I was drenched in blood. And of course I don't remember any of it.

The latest thing might be linked to my tumble. I have a pain in my shoulder area that is driving me crazy.

The pain is centered around my shoulder. When I want to do something, every little move, cramps up my body. It's nasty and then it bolts like a lighting bolt heading down my arm and to the hand. Ouch.

It's very difficult to do anything. Picking up a pen or eating, there' s that pain. Dr M gave me some injection and it worked for about four hours.

I demand to see a specialist. Dr M moves very slowly but eventually works out for me. I do have an appointment with him Friday and I'm gonna embellish the pain.

Chiffie out.

22 September 2012

More HP

HP got out of the hospital. He's on crutches and he does not like them.

He spent a few days at home and actually went to work last week. Had it been me I'd be screaming bloody murder.

Embarrassing moment for moi, okay so I've lost weight and my drawers rolldown on me while the shorts are hiked up. Well, that day I went to get HP's car. So I've walking around and what happens? My shorts fell down in the garage. I hoped nobody saw me, but it was embarrassing and funny at the same time.

He's doing great. He's actually driving around. When we go shopping we both get shopping carts. Well he got in one of those little cars and I got a cart to see what he needed.

Gotta love that HP.

Chiffie out.

12 September 2012

HP Update

Poor Hush Puppy is at the Methodist Metropolitan. He was in low blood pressure Sunday when he was at church.

He was okay but he wound up in the hospital anyway. He is diabetic so he has to watch his vitals.

And then the doctor told him that he had to have a toe amputated. Ouch. I was there when they wheeled him back to his room. He was okay and I got to meet his Mom.

He was in good spirits and I visited for a few hours. I just talked to him and he sounded good and was eating. I'm gonna try to visit later today. I have a few fires I have to put out before I go.

So I ask, please pray for him and think good thoughts for him. I know I am. I have a social worker coming to visit later today. Wonder what that's all about.

Chiffie out.

09 September 2012

Hush Puppy

Our little HP is in the emergency even as I write this. Poor thing had pancreatitus one week, he was okay. And then he had an infection on his foot. And now he's in emergencey.


 He was feeling dizzy at church and they called for an ambulance. The hospital is about five blocks from the church, so why didn't someone drive him.

So, keep him in your thoughts and say a rosary for him. Light a candle, pray for HP. Hopefully this will be a quick hospital visit.

Chiffie out.

04 September 2012

Oops...

Okay, I keep gaining and loosing weight. Right now I'm loosing. Chiffie is happy with that. I'm still eating the same stuff but smaller portions.

I've also been salading for about three months or so. I tend to forget about dinner. I'm not hungry so I'll skip dinner. Perfect.

Chiflado

02 September 2012

Dr's Visit

I went to the Dr's to get lab results. Again my t-cell count went down again. I have 127 t-cells and I'm still undetectable.

Don't know what's going on. I'm on the same regiment for quite some time now and I don't know why it's going down. There is a lab for what I'm on and to see if I should start another medication. I hope I can get it soon.

We also talked about results from some tests for the gastric bypass surgery. I'm kinda having doubts about it. Maybe if I had liposuction and a tummy lift, I'd be content. 

I also brought up my itching all over. It's been like three months now that I've had the itching and now I want relief. He said to rub lotion on them. I did and it feels like a great relief. I still would like a referral to see a dermatologist. Cross your fingers.

Chiffie out.



Tanning

This weather is great for laying out and working on my tan. In MI, I used to lay out on the deck with some ice cold water.

Here there is no place for me. In MI I also used the tanning parlor down the road from home.

To tan line or not, that is the question. I had a tan line and I've not had a tan line. The question for ya'll is who's the slut. Tan line or not.

Chiffie.

28 August 2012

WTF?!!?

Just when I thought August is waste, something had to happen.

I had knee replacement surgery on a Wednesday, D's husband picked me up and of course I don't remember.

Spent sometime at home just me and Jean Luc. And I don't remember this either.

And then it happened. Lupe showed up and pushed me and my walker down the stairs. I swear I don't remember this either.

I woke up at the downtown Baptist and under suicide watch. I had a chaperon throughout my stay. 

I apparently was covered in blood and broke my walker. Apparently I was drenched in blood. So much for a blah August.

Chiflado




09 August 2012

Again?

Hello Everybody. I hope yall are well today. I wish I can say that. I have fallen down again. It was like just another day. Then I hit the floor. What can I do now.

I fell down in the bathroom again. But at least I can say that it wasn't major. Today I felt invigorated.

So there I was getting my meds.  And I can try other meds if they are HIV.

I have more to write, about the AIDS and he caught the attenchion of me. So look around see if there any options.

Cifflado





07 August 2012

Ramblings

Just a quick note. I am having some kind of surgery on my left knee. He's gonna give me a metal rod. HP says it sounds like major surgery.

I did go to the clinic today for lab results. My t-cell count dropped again, and still undetectable. So that's the bright side?

Hopefully I'll be able to give an update. And I hope you say some prayers my way.

Out for Now, Chiff

Birthday Babe


The babe turns 52. Man he looks great for that age. I just wonder who took the picture. I want to know who was lucky to take this and see if there are other photos of this scrumptions. I drink his bath water. See if any of you know who said this and what movie it's from.

Chiffie out



02 August 2012

Jason Momoa

Don't know how I missed hottie Jason. Yesterday, was his 33rd Birthday. Honey, I be all over him.

25 July 2012

Bad Week

All I can say is I survived.

I went to the dentist one day and I found out they can not service me until my t-cell count goes up.

I was supposed that I took the wrong bus. Two weeks ago went to. By the time I found that I was on the wrong bus, I re-scheduled for last week. I took the bus back home and here I am waiting to go tonight. Third lucks the charm.

And then I had a hellish week dealing with depression. And I did nothing just watching DVDs from the library.

Why do people get depressed, I don't know.  I nap in the afternoon. I was under the covers crying. And  it did my body good.

Sorry I haven't written lately. I love everybody in my life.

Chiffie out



20 July 2012

Birthday Boy

Happy Birthday to Hush Puppies. Of course we do not ask anyone for which birthday it is. On the other hand, these shoes are calling for me.

Chiflado

17 July 2012

Lupe

I haven't heard from Lupe lately. But he recently made an appearance.

He played with the computer and left it on. He made a mess on the carpet with some upside down cake.

I have missed him and it's great to hear from him. Let's see when he makes another appearance.

Chiffie Out

16 July 2012

Dizzy

I have been having these dizzy spells lately. I almost fell of the bus the other day. And the other day I was in the elevator when one hit. I almost fell over this woman.


But I'm having an MRI to see if there's anything out of the ordinary. Will keep yall informed.


Chiffie

11 July 2012

Cosas

What has he been up to now. I have a sleep study I went to last night. Turns out my sleep study was not last night, but next Tuesday. At least I know where I have to go next.

HP is out of the hospital. He was ready to come home earlier. But the boy was ready today.

Jean Luc is doing great. He's been spending time away from me for some reason. He's not eating like he usually does. And I make sure he has fresh water everyday.

I've been watching DVDs. Just saw Fido which is about zombies. And it is hysterical. I would recommend this for anybody.

That's it for now.

Chiffie

07 July 2012

Hush Puppy

Poor HP. He's in the hospital again. And I was there yesterday and sounded sickly. I just talked with him and he's ready to go home.

Please send happy thoughts.

Chiflado out.

Dizzy Again

I don't know why, but maybe I'm allergic to VIA. Wonder if there's a pill for that. Today I lost my footing and I almost hit the floor. But somehow I managed to catch myself.

I went to see a dietitian for my bypass. We were surprised to see that I lost 14 lbs. Must be all that salading I'm eating. I also throw in some chicken fajitas and voila, lunch.

Chiflado.

03 July 2012

Dizzy Spell

It was so embarassing. I was on the bus yesterday when I got dizzy on the bus. I did make it, but my legs buckled for some reason. It took me a while before I was able to walk.

Chiffie

28 June 2012

Physical Therapy

Started my physical therapy the other day. They hooked up to some machine that made my knee feel better.

Then it's time for excersise in the pool. Nice to be in a pool again. The therapy worked in that I was not feeling pain in my knee.

After this, I will be going back to the orthopedic doctor and see what's what. He did mention knee replacement. I'm ready for anything life throws my way.

Chiff out.

22 June 2012

Crying

For the past two weeks or so, I have been crying. I don't know what  I did to deserve this. Today, I stayed in bed all day long with a box of tissues. I wasn't sleeping, just staring up at the ceiling. My cell did not ring all day, and that's a godsend.

In between these sessions, I have managed to do laundry. I also clean up the commode. Oy vey.

I don't know what tomorrow's gonna throw at me. Oh yeah, I haven't been eating less food and drinking water. I feel as if I've lost some pounds, but I won't find out until I go to the clinic. Moi, would not allow a scale in the house.

Think of me.

Chiflado

19 June 2012

Birthday Boy

Happy 40th birthday to Jean Dujardin. What a babe! He won the Oscar for best actor. I would also vote for his hot schnozz, and he is just so good looking. I am satisfied with him. He won the Cannes prize for Best Actor, the SAG Award, the Golden Globe, the BAFTA and the Oscar for one film. He also has a nose to rock my world.


Chiffie out.

14 June 2012

Left Knee Part Deux

So I've been having trouble walking and my knee hurts like there's no tomorrow. I've been using an ace bandage.

Dr M said it is advanced arthritis, so he referred me to an orthodontist surgeon and he confirmed it.

So, I'm gonna be in physical therapy for a month and then we'll see about knee replacement. I know I just hurt and want the surgery all ready.

That's the latest on poor Chiflado. Hope he gets well soon.

Chiffie out.

07 June 2012

Dr's Visit

I went to get my results today. My CD-4 t-cells dropped again. I'm 146 from whatever was last time. I am still undetectable.

Also got results from my x-rays. He said my knee is in advance arthritis. I do have an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon to see where we go from here.

My lungs and heart are okay. Nothing going on there. I just take all this information and file it. Again, I'm the healthiest sick person I know.

Chif out.

Left knee

I've had two surgeries on my left knee and looks like I am need of another one.

My knee has been swollen for the last week and my doctor ordered an x-ray. I have an appointment with him today and hopefully he'll give me a script for the pain.

Chif out.

04 June 2012

Adoption

I am adopted. How's that for a blog?

My parents did not want to hurt my feelings. They told David, one of my exes. And they told D. When I was in Michigan, she said my parents had told them the whole thing.

I was adopted as a newborn. My birth mother lives or lived in Houston. If I'd known, I would have looked her up when I lived in Houston.

Except for my sister and her daughters, I felt like I was an outsider. That explains a lot. That explains why my brother hated me. Once I asked my other sister for a recipe. She said it was only for family not for me.

I'm still marinating the news. I'm at a loss for words, me of all people. I've been wanting to change my name since elementary school, now I have a reason. I'm gonna get the ball rolling and get my ducks in order.

I still have my fabulous nieces as family. We've been through a lot. They are both family and friends. I love them very much. I just wish I'd learn this earlier.

Still cannot believe they told David. I guess since he was my main squeeze at the moment he would tell me. He did tell me but I just blew it off. He did not like how my family treated me. He got to go to one of the family events and we were by ourselves along with Veda our Afghan Hound. Again the outsider.

Well, that's that. I have a lot of issues to deal with and I will bring it up with my therapist. Hopefully I'll get some questions answered.


Chiffie out.

Birthday Boy

Happy 27th Birthday to  Evan Lysacek. Baby baby, this boy be fine. Great bod and scrumptious nose. Woof!

26 May 2012

Birthday Boy

Happy 48th Birthday to hottie Lenny Kravitz. I just can't get used to him at that age.

Vet

I don't remember if I wrote a great vet experience with Affordable Pet Care. Jean Luc was scared but he mellowed when we got home.

He had all his shots and a manicure so he's strictly an indoor baby.
http://apcbasse.com/

Chiffie out.

23 May 2012

Gastric Bypass

I've been sitting on this for about three months. I wanted to tell my nieces first.

Yes, I'm gonna have the procedure. My weight has always been a problem. Like I said, last year I lost 60 lbs. without even trying. This year I gained thirty lbs and I've started to lose weight again. I've already lost 15 lbs.

I'm excited and anxious about this. We'll see how this works. I'm scheduled for sometime in September. I am having some tests before I can proceed.

Chiffie out.

20 May 2012

Cane

Everyone that's seen me has also seen my cane. It's one of those cheap Mexican canes with Mayan or Aztec colours.

Yes I do need it, and I'm now schlepping with an ace bandage around my left knee. I can walk with out it, but I really need both the can and the bandage.

I get so many compliments on it from natives and tourists. The Louisiana people says it looks like a voodoo cane. Now I must have one.

But I'm comfortable with my cane.

Chiffie out

17 May 2012

Jean Luc

Jean Luc has been acting different lately. Last week he spent the whole week under the bed,coming out for food and water.

This week he's been craving attention. He still sleeps with me, and he's been attached with me as usual.

He keeps jumping on my lap wanting me to stroke him and hugging and kissing. Of course I give him all my loving.

He's my baby, so I will always give him my attention.

Chiff out.

15 May 2012

Dentist

Went to the dentist yesterday for a follow up. My thrush is gone thanks to the med he prescribed.

Next on tap, he's gonna yank out some teeth and we might end up with a partial or a denture. We shall see what happens.

Chiffie out.

13 May 2012

La Cage aux Folles

Anybody that knows me know how much I love the theatre. Yesterday HP and I went to see La Cage aux Folles.

George Hamilton was in it and he can't really sing, but he did give it the old college try. Christopher Sieber stole the show with his version of Albin. This did follow the original French film, not the poor American version of The Birdcage.

I definitely would recommend this. 

Chif out.

Roller Coaster

Last year I lost 60 lbs and this year I gained 30 lbs. And as luck would have it, I've lost 15 lbs this year. I'm on the roller coaster of  weight loss. I just wonder what would happen if I worked out.

Went to the theatre yesterday and my pants started to slip. I'm all for the weight loss. Now if I can only find clothes that fit.

Chif out.

08 May 2012

Ramblings

Nothing much going on for me to write anything lately. Guess I'll write about some goings on.

Just got a great haircut, makes me look like a lesbian. HP loved it and Purple 13 liked it but thought I needed to color it. I like it because it makes me look younger.

Jean Luc has  been acting strange lately. He's not been eating as much as he usually does. And he's been drinking more water. Today he was mewing for no reason. He just needed attention which he always gets.

HP got a kitten last week and he's enjoying the antics. Gumbo is white with a gray marking on his head. I can hardly wait to meet him.

That's it for now. Nothing much to report except the weather. It's hot out but there is a cool breeze that makes it comfortable.

Chiffie out.

27 April 2012

Birthday Boy

Happy 32nd Birthday to Scottish hottie James MacAvoy. First caught my attention in the sci-fi Dune.

Chiff out.

25 April 2012

Dental

As usual, I'm right. Just got back from the dentist and I do not have cancer. But he did find thrush and gave me a script for it.

Chiflado is still in good health and the healthiest sick person I know. I did give a sigh of relief.

Chiflado

23 April 2012

Thank You

Just want to thank everyone who is in my support group. I am lucky to have you in my corner. You know who you are. All friends and and family.

Thanks for being there for me. And I love ya'll more than my red Solo cup :-)

Chiflado

21 April 2012

Colonoscopy

No, not me gain. This time it was Hush Puppy's turn. I went along because they would not do it without someone being there for him.

No problem. What's a friend for? It was just another chapter in our friendship.

Afterwards, we went to Einstein's for a light lunch and then it was back home for me. I crashed and took a nap. You'd think I was the one that went through the procedure.

Chiff out.

14 April 2012

Schlepping

Yesterday was hectic for me. Woke up at 5 a.m. had cawfee and was out the door at 7,45. Before I left, I called Einstein's Bagels to set aside some asiago cheese bagels. I grew to love them when I was in Michigan.

Went to the Medical Centre to see my psychiatrist, the delicious Dr J. We had a nice visit and he gave me a script for ambien.

Then I went to Einstein's for my bagels. I am a happy camper. I actually got my bus without waiting much.

Came home had lunch and I was off to my appointment with Dr M, my HIV doctor. We talked about some issues and he gave me a script for my acid reflux.

Then I waited forever to get my script. I was there from 1,00 to 3,45. I was exhausted and came home. I'll take the scripts to the pharmacy sometime today.

I came home and crashed. Normally I get under the covers for naps, but I was so tired I fell asleep and forgot the covers.

Got up, had a bagel for dinner and called it a night. Slept like a log.

Chiff.

Great Hair Month

I had a great hair month last month and looks like it's carrying over to this month.

I have a versatile hair cut that I can style in different looks. I kinda want to dye it again but who's gonna see it other than Jean Luc.

E did say the other night I don't look 53. He said I looked in my late 30's early 40's. What are friends for anyway? Love how they lie.

Chiff out

11 April 2012

Bloated

I've been feeling bloated for the past week. I feel like a water balloon ready to burst. Gets on my nerves. I wake up bloated and go to sleep bloated. Don't know what's making me feel like that.

I have been taking over the counter meds to help out but I still feel like a water balloon ready to burst. I'm hoping this will pass soon.

And there's the acid reflux that makes me gag a lot. I can take stuff, but I still feel it. It's nasty because I can burp and I can taste the bile. Not a pretty picture. I see the doctor Friday and see what he's gonna prescribe.

Chiff out.

Ladies who Dine

Went to India Palace for dinner tonight. Hooked up with E, a cherished friend I've known for 25 years. You read that right.

I'm blessed to have him in my support system, even though I give him the guilties because we see each other like once a year.

Anyhoooo, the food was fabulous tonight. Nothing like a buffet to meet my needs. The company was also great. We caught up on our lives and had a nice visit.

I would recommend India Palace for lunch or dinner.
http://www.indiapalacesa.net/

Chiff out.

06 April 2012

JC The Musical

I already know I will burn in hell. So with that in mind, I have to share this with everyone. No comment.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WLKk00OYKhU

Chiffie out.

Lupe

I don't mind having Lupe around. He gets the things I need done sometimes even before I know.

Lupe was at the doctor's office and I didn't know it. I was shown paperwork verifing me to back it up. Just wish he would tell me about it.

Chiff out.

Birthday Boy

Happy 41st Birthday to hottie Ewan McGregor. Wonder if he's comando in his kilt. I would like to find out.

Chiff out.


04 April 2012

Dental School

I've been going to the UT Dental School. Last time they took x-rays and made a mold of my teeth, what's left of them.

Today they extracted a tooth. They also did a biopsy to rule out cancer. I already know I'm negative only because I'm the healthiest sick person I know. I get the results at my next visit.

Chiff out.

Ladies who Lunch

HP and I went to EZ's for lunch yesterday. We each had fabulous burgers and fries and onion rings.

It's always nice to visit with HP. We then went to HEB to get stuff for Jean Luc. He is so spoiled. He should be glad that he's an indoor cat.

And I would recommend EZ'S for a nice meal.

http://www.ezsrestaurants.com/

Chiflado out.

01 April 2012

Billy Eliot



Anyone that knows me knows that I enjoy quality films and the theatre.
Every once in a while I get to enjoy both. I saw the film Billy Eliot so long ago and now there is a Broadway musical. Hush Puppy and I went to the Majestic to see the musical and I was not let down.

The story of young Billy who finds himself liking ballet. We then go through his story getting in the Royal Ballet.

I would highly reccomend both.

Chiflado out.