Birthday Boy!|

Today is Mess's birthday. We never say how old we are. He goes by White Chocolate Mess or just Mess to his dearest friends. He's a rare individual that can tolerate moi. We love ya Mess, let's make some more next year and the year after and so on.

Chif out.

Progress

Boy, I've come a long way since October last. I still cannot fathom how I fell in and why I was not able to get a grip to get out. Guess I was in shock as I lay there.

There was no way of telling time while I was there. But survive I did. This is where we say Cosa Mala Nunca Muere, Bad things never die but survive I did.

Anyhoooooo, I was in a wheel chair for a week then had the walker for about two months. Then came the cane which I still use depending on how I feel. But walking I am able to do again.

I can't walk to the Mercado to the Alamo. I used to be able to but I do make use of my bus pass for the month. That's why when HP comes over, we take the trolley to Alamo Square for Subways. This is the only Subways that I know of that are open on the weekend. There's only four walking distance to the other. One day I'll check out the other two at Market Square and the other across the street from the Cathedral.

But I digress. I've come a long way. It shows people what sheer determination can do or what we are capable of. Who knew? LOL.

Laytor alligay-tor.

Chif out.

Ladies Who Lunch

HP came over yesterday but he took us to lunch at La Margarita. The food is always tasty and never salty. I had my Green Echiladas and HP had Enchilads Acapulco which is stuffed with sea food. HP and Mess have been eating vegetarian except Mess is strictly sea food and vegetarian and HP will eat sea food and chicken.

Anyhooo, we were busy looking at hunky waiters and the hot tourists. OK, most tourists are obnoxious and pretentious, but every now and then you get a good one. I stay away from them and everybody around me!

Chif out.

Blonde Ambition

Oops! I forgot to blog about my hair. I love it and I am noticed more than usual. Danny does my color, which means I'm blond down to the roots.

Then I went to the barber and got a hair cut and a shave. I've never had a shave so I urged him on. I did ask for him to leave me a goatee.

I'm awesome. I'm loving it. I tell people it's the color of Peeps, and then it looks like a Nazi officer. LOL.

And guys noticed me at the camp out. It's funny how you see these people once or twice a year and they actually remember me. Don't know why.

Chif out.

Backache

Don't know why my back is hurting, but it's hurting bad. This is day three and I've been taking Tylenol followed by a much needed nap. Today I actually took 2 naps and it helped a lot.

Other than that, I'm okay. I'm back on meds again. I took a little vacation off meds because of the camp out.

Speaking of camp out, HP is already talking about the camp out in September! Oy vey. Let me recuperate before I start talking about it. That's 118 days away! Dare I start another countdown.

Chif out.

Mental Health

Just got back from my visit with Dr J, my psychiatrist. I am in good mental health compared to 2 or 3 years ago. I think we got the correct medications in control.

This being a Hump Day also, I would love to have humped with him. I think he is hot and I wouldn't mind humping with him. LOL.

Chif out.

Karaoke

Karaoke is like tattoos, you can never get enough. I've done karaoke before and have been good. Not my first number! I really effed Beyond the Sea and I knew it when I was on stage.

But then I redeemed myself. Strangers in The Night has always been one of my favourites and I've sung it before and Honey, I made up for my bad start.

And I just had to do I Say a Little Prayer and wowed the audience. It got to the point where the MC looked my way to see if I had another. I would have sung some more but he was having problems with his equipment. Too bad, there's always September!

Chif out.

FREEZING!

The weather was perfect until we went to sleep. I was shivering all night long and did not get much sleep. That plus I had to urinate several times during the night.

We went to several cocktail parties and drank up a storm. The camp ground is on a septic tank so we were asked to urinate in the woods and save the bathrooms for #2.

Saturday morning was still cold and breakfast warmed us up a little. We did spend a lot of time around the camp out fire to warm us up. And then Saturday night, it was cool again and we headed for our tents to go to sleep.

HP did buy me a blankie at Wal-Mart and I wrapped myself up like a burrito with that and my flannel sheet. Since we were pissing in the woods, I just opened my tent flap and I peed out from the tent. As soon as I finished and rolled up myself, I had to go again.

Chif out.

Joshua

Joshua deserves a post altogether. He was around 20 or so, quite handsome, and of Pacific Islander American descent. He wore different sarongs that he changed periodically.

We did karaoke and he wasn't that good but who cares. We just wanted to see him. He made up with his presence.

And then the piece de resistant, during the drag show, he came out in belly dancer attire and wig and proceeded to belly dance for us. He was awesome.

Survivalist

Okay, I survived. Friday we got there around 1,00 p.m. and pitched our tents near the compound. It was just me and HP, Mess wasn't feeling well.

We just missed lunch so we waited until dinner, which was poor boys and salad. Breakfast was scrambled eggs, hash browns, and sausage patties.
Dinner was brisket and grilled chicken and that was a welcome treat.

Sunday, we skipped and broke down HP's tent. I borrowed one from the guys in charge. The plus side was we could leave the tent up for the organizers to break down. And then we drove home.

Shoe Nazi. We were waiting in line for dinner Friday and this man came up to me. He was the medical person in charge and gave me a warning to get some shoes rather than the sandals I was wearing. Creep. He warned us because of the snakes and scorpions. So Saturday we drove to the nearest Wal-Mart to get something more presentable. And of course he wasn't around and there were other guys in sandals.

Chif out.

Wednesday

It's getting closer and closer. It'll be just a getaway from AIDS and medication. I've been before and you can make the best of everything.

Went to lunch with Centromed @ La Margarita, like I never tire of Mexican food. Then Mess came by and we went to HEB followed by the liquor store. We do have to take our essentials.

I actually haven't packed yet if you can believe it. But I already know what I'm taking. I do have to remember to take my tooth paste, I forgot the last time and had to ask the guy next to me for squirt outta his. We all help each other out.

2 more days until the camp out.

Anxious

Well, the Meals on Wheels did not come by today. I stayed in all day waiting for them, so in the meantime. I cleaned out my closet. I have stuff for the Goodwill and some to trash.

I am glad to report there was no vomiting today. Cawfee and toast for breakfast and carne guisada for lunch. I waited until five to take out trash and go to Subways for dinner. All this before Glee, which was kinda ho-hum tonight.

3 days until the camp out.

Monday

Boy am I tired. I did a lot of running around yesterday. Went to the bank to deposit a refund from a check that was re-processed twice. That was my small brief adventured at North Star.

I got home earlier than expected so I did my library pharmacy routine. I came home to eat and vomit. Woo hoo.

Don't know when I returned my camping gear, but I wanted to save as much as possible. I remembered that they have gear for the asking. Starting next month, I will start to buy the gear one at a time so I'll be ready for the next camping in September.

4 days until the camp out.

Meals on Wheels

This came out of nowhere. I got a call to see if I wanted Meals again. Duh! Of course I said yes. So I have to be here between 9 a.m. - 3.00 p.m. next Tuesday like I'm gonna go somewhere.

I do have to run to Wal-Mart probably Monday to get some more stuff for the camp out. Today I bought an air mattress and a tent, so I'm almost ready for next weekend.

I would have bought the other stuff I wanted but there's only so much one can carry on the bus.

Chif out.

7 days until the camp out.

Vomit

I'm throwing up again. And I was doing so great. Of course it's the food I make at home that make me sick. That's why I go out for lunch or dinner. I should have brought it up with my doctor when I saw him this week. I'm just afraid to bring anything up because then we have do tests and see what's available.

I hate this. It leaves an ugly aftertaste that brushing sometimes help.

I did go out today. Went to get some colour in my hair again. We bleached and then added secret ingredient into my hair. Gurl, can we say flawless? I LOVED it! My hair cut from last week give me a great effect.

Chif out.

8 days until the camp out.

Birthday Girl

Happy 70th Birthday to Ann-Margaret, 28 April. 70! I remember when she was on the Flintstones.

Chif out.

9 days until the camp out.

Dr's visit

I went to the clinic to see my doctor and get the scoop on my labs. Turns out everything is okay, Tcell count of 152, still undetectable liver, bladder, and kidneys okay. No signs of diabetes, my glucose readings are usually between 6o to 80.

So I'm a man living with HIV that is in perfect health. Gurl I'm ready for it to give me the worst it can throw my way.

Chif out.

10 days until the camp out.

WTF!!!

What's with the weather? Just yesterday I was in shorts and had the a/c on. I would have stayed home but there was an errand I had to do. I returned some DVDs and pick some things on hold.

Keep warm, for a while of course.

Chiflado

11 days until the camp out.

Weekend

Hey Gurlzs, thought ya'll were lucky for me to bother ya'll this passed week. I just haven't been in the mood to do much. So, I'll do a quick update.

HP came over Easter Sunday yada yada, yada. Subway's for lunch and HP on the net later that Sunday.

Got grocery out of the picture. Mess called to invite me to HEB. Always great seeing friends.

Centro dinner Wednesday @ Luby's. Mess wasn't feeling well so I went by myself. I was starting to check the bus schedules when I remembered the trolleys. I usually do this during the week. Take the blue trolley to the Library then taking it to Camden and Lexington where I can take the blue trolley in the opposite direction and dropped me at the Luby's parking lot.

The rest of the week was just here just me and Jean Luc. Also enjoyed a must needed nap, I've been napping a lot lately. I might slowly be turning into a cat.

D invited me to dinner at Luby's for dinner yesterday and I just could not say no. D and husband L picked me up around 6 p.m. and I had a chicken fried steak.

Just nice to get out any reason every once in a while.

Chif out.

12 days until the camp out.

Birthday Boy

Happy 32nd Birthday to James MacAvoy, 20 April. Hot actor from Great Britain. And he has a schnozz to satisfy me.

Chif out.

16 days to the camp out.

Barber Shop

I woke up with bad hair and decided to get coiffed. I use the Gunther Hotel's barber shop, it was a great experience for me.

When I walked in, my barber greeted me with my name and he was just finishing off a hot silver haired babe.

When it was my turn, D the barber said I was looking better than the last time he saw me. Wow. A strait man complementing a gay man, I was impressed.

Anyhooo, he knew what I wanted and got to work. I was very satisfied with him again. I do want to get a shave one day, I can't shave at home because of the tremors. My hands are fine, but as soon as I put a fork or spoon or a pen, my hands start up again.

But I will recommend the Barber Shop at the Gunther Hotel and ask for Dave.

Chif out

17 days until the Camp out.

Recommendation

HP lent me a book I would be interested in. The book was sitting there for months. I finally decided to read it and it was a laugh riot.

'At Least in the City Someone would hear me scream.' is the book in question. Author Wade Rouse decides to leave the big city and leaves the comforts of St Louis and with his partner move to the woods of western Michigan.

Of course this struck a home because years ago I moved to MI to live happily ever after. Yeah, right. Anyhoooo, this is a quick read and highly recommended by Chif..

Chif out.

20 days until the camp out.

Radio Shack

I woke up exhausted from all the schlepping I did yesterday. I hardly remember the ordeal of busing. The bright side was Whataburger, I was still tired but the fizz in the soda perked me up a little.

So I walked into Radio Shack and finally with some help from hunky worker Vhon. They didn't have the exact cable but he found a chord that is close to what I had. Success finally.

I came home exhausted even more with the heat. I took some aspirin and lay down to nap but I was still in adrenaline mode and was not able to sleep.

Chif out.

21 days until the camp out.

Exhausted!

Talk about tired out. Jean Luc thought my computer cables are for biting.
He's gone through three cables, but he thought they were for his benefit.

Today after lunch I went to the Office Depot at Crossroads. Stupid moi thought that as soon as I find the correct aisle I would find the cables. Of course moi didn't take them and I can ask the hunky worker there. He showed me what was in stock and I did not see the elusive cables. Why don't you bring in the cables and we could see if they were in stock.

So I trudged back home to take the cables. Of course they didn't have them in stock. So there I was waiting for a bus to take me back home. And then, I saw the 520 bus come in and I knew this one would go all the way to Military drive.

Of course Office Depot and Best Buy didn't have them in stock. One of the hunky guys suggested I try Radio Shack. So that's where I will try tomorrow.

Chif out

22 days until the camp out.

Birthday Boy

Happy 38th Birthday to my Boo Adrien Brody, 11 April. He's hot and has a schnozz that makes me purr.

Chif out.

23 days until the camp out.

Tattoo

Forgot to blog about this, but last Thursday I went and got my seventh tattoo. Love it. It's true when people say they're addictive. I've decided on the eighth one but I have to lose a few more pounds.

Great recommendation for Honest Charlie's Tattoos on Fredericksberg in the deco district. Ask for Cat or Robert. Phone: 210.737.0656.

Chif out.

24 days until the camp out.

Naps

We have been taking a lot of naps lately. Like I'd be tired from working, yeah right. Don't know if it's the depression trying to come back, I don't know. You know, sometimes I reminisce about me working and not getting enough sleep. But now?

Of course I have my roommate with me, he needs to know what's going on in my domain. And he does sleep with me. Guess I'm slowly turning into a cat.

28 days until the camp out.

Hump Wednesday

Okay, so it's almost over but it still is Hump Day. I actually left the comforts of home and went the North Star Mall to do some bank transactions. I got my money but then my new debit card wouldn't accept me.

I was waiting for the clerk to come buy when another clerk asked if he could help me. Boy did he! I got that out of the way. I had no idea how many times I use my debit cart. I lost my card last week, AIDSheimer's, and the guy at the call center got all my info and my card would get to me within 5 working days.

That was my day. I was done and exhausted and came home to lie down. And how was your day?

Chif out.

30 days until the camp out.

SAHA Inspection

This was no trouble for me. I thought he was gonna do a thourough inspection. Honey, I can do an inspection from my days at the Hyatt. No, this guy just checked the stove and oven and fringe, and made sure I had hot/cold running water. Now he's gonna go to SAHA where somebody will figure out my share of the rent.

He was in and out in less than five minutes. Sounds like one of my exes'!

31 days until the camp out.

POZ Posse

Please forgive me for skipping a few days. HP came buy to surf the net and whatnot. We went to Subways where we both ordered subs, duh, and ate half there and we brought the other half for dinner. Oh yeah, we printed out our forms for the camp out.

Yesterday, Mess came by after an appointment at the clinic and we went to HEB on Olmos Dr. I got all the heavy stuff that I used to bring on the bus one at a time, Jean Luc's food and litter just to name a few.

31 days to the camp out.

TGIF

It is Friday, isn't it? Just another meaningless day for me. The one thing I did differently was to take some stuff to the Goodwill. I need to purge as much as possible. I have no use for some of my mess. I was able to stroll over with my walker. I had a big bag full of clothes and two smaller bags with more clothes and some glass chingaderas to unload.

I came home to find the mailman was here early and I got my Netflix for the weekend. Really bad movie, Burlesque with Cher and Christina Aguilera and some interesting cameos. Don't bother with this unless you're a fan of Cher and/or Christina.

35 Days to the camp out.

Moody

I'm still a bit moody. I have had other days like this, so I'm used to it. I've been lying down every afternoon in the fetal position. It's like I'm fighting some inner demon and I don't want to lose.

Jean Luc has been concerned about me. When I'm lying down he comes looking for me and meows at me. And then he touches me and after he knows I'm there, he lies down next to me, and he'll fall asleep or he starts grooming himself.

Don't know what I'm depressed about, but that has been me for the past few weeks. It's just nice to lie down and not think of anything. I can handle that. We'll see how long this lasts.

Chif out

36 days until the camp out.

Birthday Boy

Happy 40th Birthday to Ewan MacGregor, 31 March. He's quite the hunk, this picture makes me get him in the shower and clean him up. He can thank me anyway he wants.

37 Days until the camp out.

Ladies who Lunch

Mess, Hush Puppy, and moi went to Luther's today. It's always nice to see each other and catch up with these two. Luther's is a quiet bistro on the Main drag and I didn't see any people in drag.

We also began to talk seriously about the camp out. HP will be picking my up @ 9,30 and then Mess. HP generously rents a car and we head on up to the camp site, don't ask me how far away it is.

We keep talking about karaoke and what song to sing as a trio. I'm ready for my close up Mr DeMille. Hell I took to the stage last time and it was quite a fun time. Mess and I performed, but HP was a little hesitant. Too bad, his loss.

40 days until the camp out.

Passport

I cannot believe that my passport arrived so quickly. It's in my gimmee hands. You might say, Chif, where are you going? Nowhere for now, but you never know when a Fairy Godmother will listen to me and my requests. Hey a girl can always dream, although my dreams are just little fires here and there.

Haven't been feeling well these few days and I lie down for a nap. When I wake up only to see Jean Luc grooming himself.

Anyhoo, there's Paris in my horizon. I'll go again but not with the walker! I did take my cane the last time, so it's going again. This year is out, but I might come into some money within the next few years or so. We'll see.

43 days until the camp out. I can smell it all the way to the Hotel Carlyle.

Birthday boy

Happy 80th Birthday to Leonard Nimoy, 26 March. He has written books, and other topics, but he is famous for his portrayal of Spock in the sci-fi series, Star Trek.

An AIDSheimer Moment

I haven't done this in particular, but ya'll know what I'm talking about. So I called my meds to the pharmacy today. I was left on hold for quite some time.

Seems I had already called them in Saturday and my meds are waiting for me. Another AIDSheimer's moment. At least they make for a funny moment.

Chif out

Ladies who Lunch

This was an unusual Sunday. I actually went out with someone other than my Pozze.

I've been trying to get my DVD of The Women from E. E and I go back to the Hyatt days. Did I every mention I worked at a hotel? Anyhooo, we actually found the time in our busy schedules to meet, I know the me working is laughable.

So we went to India Palace for their buffet. I had my usual mango lassi, and we went in for the kill. I'd been craving the food here and was a bit disappointed. Maybe they have a new chef. I will recommend this anyway.

Well we caught up on what was going in our lives, and I will not elaborate on anything. The thing is I was enjoying time with a friend from the infamous Hyatt. Talk about memories.

So that was it for E and me. He was wondering if there was an ice cream place in the area but he didn't find any. Just take me home moi said. I was out of my home for about 2 hours. I know, I could have been out longer, but I was out of my element for a bit. I'll do better next time. I've said it, it's out there. Besides we have to meet again to get my DVD back.

Chif out.

Nausea

For the past week or so, I've dealt with nausea and the Hershey squirts. So I was at group Monday and there were were 2 others in the same boat as mine. We talk about everything and nothing at the same time, and we do get updates of things going on in the community.

And another thing, why is everybody wanting to know if I shat or not? Maybe it's their fetish du jour? Okay, I've been constipated for at least 40 years or so. But ever since my tub experience, I've been very regular.

More later...
Chif out.

Birthday Girl

Happy 64th Birthday to Glenn Close, 19 March. Over looked by Oscar for some reason, at least she's been recognized by being nominated.

Meals on Wheels

Well this came out of nowhere. Too good to be true though. I got a call from the agency that put me on the list and gave me the news. Apparently I was approved for only 60 days, and my last day will be 1st April.

It was fun while it lasted. They were convenient meals, tasteless though, so I actually salted the meals and some kind of spicy for an extra kick.

Where I did miss cooking, I also got used to the meals. I'm gonna have to go back to cooking, and I then I'll miss the meals. No satisfying me.

Chif out.

Regular Weekend

Nothing really happened this weekend. Went to the pharmacy and the library for DVDs. HP was here yesterday to surf the net.

I called E this weekend, he's a cherished friend from our Hyatt days. We caught up real quick. Then he mentioned that a supervisor at CITI who I found gorgeous based on his nose. Seems that he might be part of my country club. Don't know if it's a rumour or not, but I did tell E to give the guy my phone#, email address, etc.

Chif out.

Not Well

For the past few weeks, I have not been feeling well. Don't know if it's the oak or whatever is in the air. Anyhoo, my tum is out of control. At least I have the marinol for nausea, marinol is made from marijuana.

I'm just afraid to bring this up to the doctor because then he'll run more tests, and I can barely afford the co-pay, but the PM will look at the bills and see if she can take it on.

Chif out.

Nursing Update

Don't know if I blogged is, you know me and AIDSheimers, but Tuesday I was discharged from the visiting nurse. I got used to my nurse and we had a productive rapport between us.

We decided to go somewhere for lunch on Friday. I told her, just fudge some statistics and we'll go somewhere. I don't know if she'll have time between house visits.

Chif out.

Birthday boy

Happy 40th Birthday to hunky Jon Hamm, 10 March. He's done a couple of movies and TV series. But he is great with his portrayal on AMC's Mad Men. Oh yeah, he has a schnozz and has made my blog Chez Schnozz. Gotta love the guy.

Chif Out.

SAHA Part 2

Went to SAHA this afternoon to do whatever. I didn't know what to expect or what was the next hurdle. Anyhoo, I was called and sat in her cubicle, chick never introduce herself. She was entering data and told me that's it. What was it?

I've been approved for Section 8 housing!!! My monthly rent is lower now. They pay for the majority of my rent and I'm responsible for the difference. I feel fabulous about it all. The final hurdle will be the inspection which will be within the next 10 days or so.

Chif out.

SAHA

Finally. My background check came through today and they called to set an appointment with them. Think positive thoughts for me. I need all the help I can get. My appointment is tomorrow morning, so I might just come home and update my blog.

Also tomorrow, my nurse's supervisor will be coming to check my progress. I'm kinda tired of this nurse's visits. My wound is healed, I need to terminate these visits. I kinda think they're just sucking money from the insurance company. It's time to let go and put my wings to use.

Chif out.

Frustrating

I'm between losing weight and getting better. I just do not have any jeans that fit me right now. I could find a pair now only to have it not useable later.

Winter garb is sweat pants and they're only for a few months. Then comes spring and fall, and I might need some jeans that fit better.What a dilemma.

A girls worst nightmare. And you know me, I will do something fabulous with my hair. I've been having great days for the past week. If only I can last to the camp out in May. I'm planning on looking gorgeous of course.

Joel will be with spirit as they want to vandalize our homes. It's so sad when we see this, just makes us down.

Ladies who Lunch

Moi et Hush Puppy went out to lunch today. We went to the Mexican Manhattan. He was also gonna check email, but he never got to it because he misplaced his cell phone.

So we had lunch, typical Tex-Mex food. And we decided that he should go home and see if he could find his phone. Our visit was kept short as we prioritized finding his phone.

I just came home and attempted to take a nap. I was sitting there with the phone in my lap waiting his call. Of course he called just as I was nodding off. Turns out his phone was in his back pack all this while.

I told him at least it was a phone and not an award letter with all my information. I don't think I blogged it, but I lost my award letter on the bus when I went to see Dr J, my favourite psychiatrist.

Things could have been worse.

Chif out.

Labs

I went to the clinic to get my lab results last week. Of course everything is always great, my t-cell count went down to 173, down from the previous count, 250. More weight loss.

I also got a script for a water pill and hopefully that will take care of my swollen feet. And the pill is working.

Chif out.

Birthday Girl

Happy 61st Birthday to Iris Chacon. Iris is a singer, dancer, entertainer hailing from Puerto Rico. She even hosted a talk show and a couple of movies.

Chif out.

Pammplemousse

OMG! I did something I haven't done in seven years! I'm almost sure that's French for grapefruit. Nothing like a grapefruit to make your day. I used to buy them in those bags and I'd make a production about peeling the fruit, seperating the sections and finally getting to meat of them after pulling the membranes.

As luck would have it, that's the one food diet we cannot have! They apparently cause the HIV meds to take a nose drive. At every luncheon or dinner we have, someone always asks about them. They're part of Texas and you can get them anywhere.

They were there for the picking. They were 3 for a dollar, so I was squeezing them and sniffing them and I just had to take them. I came home, put everything away and went through a ritual from way back. They were so delicious. I was in heaven for the day.

Chif out.

Sunday W/Hush Puppy

HP came over after church to check his mail and surf away. We were hungry and the first thing was where to go. He decided to go vegetarian and sea food. I am a carnivore and must have meat, as well as main entrees. LOL.

I gave him three options, the Mercado, the deli, and Subways. He brought up the notion that the La Margarita and Mi Tierra might be busy from the church crowd.

That gave us Subways. The one down the street is closed on Sunday, but there is the one at Alamo Plaza that is open. We've been to it before and I liked the atmosphere better than the Houston St one.

As luck would have it, they were out of bread! We managed to order I guess with some hidden bread I guess. So we both were able to order. HP gets the tuna with some veggies. I did my usual roasted chicken. We ate half and saved the other half for dinner.

HP was in the moment and started singing clang clang clang Went the Trolly. We were surround by tourists and didn't know what to do with the fagelahs in back. Yes we were in the back and singing and laughing and enjoyment.

So we got home and he played with my pussoir until JL bit him. My baby is bi-polar and goes from sated to whining. He's such a character and I have to laugh at his shenanigans. He is the entertainment when people come over. I give him a saucer of cat nip and off he goes. He eats some cat nip and puts on a show for us. It's hysterical watching him transform from cat to kitten.

Chif out.

Showers

Once that bandage was gone, I was able to enjoy a full shower. When in my malaise, I had to manuever around both wounds. The elbow is starting to blend in with my skin. The back wound finally stopped draining and it's scabbed over and ready to flake away.

Cosas

I was gonna blog somethings, but I've already blogged them. Still waiting on SAHA. I call everyday to see if my background check has come in. The other thing is the neuropathy in my head. Funky feeling. I'm anxious about these and hope they will be resolved not too soon for me.

On the bright side, I'm having a great hair day. Still have meals to last me the weekend. I'm on top again for the time being. So far no problems. And the camp out is about 2 months away.

Nothing else going, Chif out.

Section 8

So I got my voucher and some papers for my manager to fill out. I have been ready since last week. I think I have to make an appointment with someone before we can proceed. I have been calling everyday to check if they have received my background check.

I've been waiting anxiously to get this thing going. I'm hoping to get everything taken care of by April. Cross your fingers.

Chif out.

Birthday boy

Happy 38th birthday to Peter Andre, on 27 February. Don't know much about him other than he's hot!

Ginormous Step

I had to go to group today to pick up my bus pass. I got my stuff in order for L, my latest lab results and another co-pay. Turns out she'd already paid it, she wrote down it down with check # and date it got paid. So now I have to call Santa Rosa and see what my records show.

Anyhoooo, forgetful moi forgot to take my cane. I was in the lobby and made a decision to go without my cane. Like I've written before I can no longer walk in in strides and walk very slowly now. I actually did okay but found out I still need my walker or cane, depends where I'm going.

Speaking of labs, I got my recent labs and everything is okay. My t-cell count dropped to 153, down from 250 last time. My viral load was good so I'm still undetectable which is what my doctor looks at. My kidneys are fine, cholesterol was under control, everything came out great. I'm the healthiest sick person I know. LOL.

Chif out.

More Baby Steps

Friday, the nurse saw that my wound had scabbed over and that we're doing great. We did talk about letting it air dry, so after she left moi decided to take it off. It's still delicate and itchy, but anyone that knows me knows I like adventures, and this was.

OMG, OMG, OMG! HP came by to use my computer, it's the only time we get to see each other. He's curious and wanted to see my wound when I was in the hospital, but it was bandaged. So yesterday I showed him my boo-boo. OMG was all he could say.

I can only feel it because of the location and I think an OMG is what I can say about it also. I was planning on tatooing the area to hide the scar, but there's an indentation there. We'll see how it is in a few months.

Chif out

Happy 79th Birthday to Dame Elizabeth Taylor, today 27 February. Legendary actress and AIDS activist.

4 Days

So there I was stuck in the bath tub. I lost track of everything. Remember, I was in the bathroom and there are no windows for me to make sense of night or day.

After all the drama, I found out that Mess and HP figured there was something going on. My nieces call or email once a week, so they were left out of the loop. HP asked Mess to call 911.

After more drama, it sank in that I was 'out' for four days. Four Days?! That's what I'm worth? HP was dreading that information. And management here called B&D that I was on my way to the hospital. They broke down and cried thinking the worse.

Of course there were messages on my answering machine. It took me a while to get acclimated to what was going on. I still have dizzy spells and I'm very careful with everything. I was blessed to have these amazing people looking after me. I now regularly check in with everyone.

Four days. It could have been been worse. HP was dreading telling me how much time passed. Mess and HP are my heroes and I will never forget that.
Chif out.

Baby Steps

Mess has been an angel taking me to HEB once a week. It's fun shopping with him because there are cute men to cruise at the store.

This week we were short on funds, so we didn't shop. However, I needed a couple of things and I psyched myself up for the bus routine. I have to remember to take little steps rather than my usual strides. I was very careful as I maneuvered my way through the store.

I'm proud of myself for getting my fat ass out today. It was exhausting also as I took a nap when I got home.

Chif out.

The Saga Continues

Seems I lost a week in November. I left rehab on a Monday, I remember that much. I was at home the week of 14 November. HP verified that for me. He did say it was probably the meds. B brought me home with the kids. While I was on hiatus, D and B cleaned my apartment, they're sweet, takes after the wonderful uncle.

I even showed up at Sunday Group, gurl take a picture.

On the 21st I went back to Santa Rosa for a battery of tests. The nurses were all abuzz about me. Apparently I made a lot of fans during my first visit. I don't remember much . I did learn that my meds go down better with a glass of wine though. LOL. Of course all my tests came out great. I'm a healthy sick person.

I'm almost sure here is where the fat lady sings! If I remember anything else, I'll blog it of course.

Chif out.

Birthday Girl

Happy 74th birthday to singer Nancy Wilson, February 20. She can sure belt out some quality songs.

Little Green Men

Apparently there are more inhabitants of my apartment. I live with little green men or gremlins. They don't do anything bad, but they are a nuisance.

Example: In the late evening I turn on the hood light on while I do other things around the house. When I least expect it, the light is gone from the kitchen. I thought maybe the bulb blew out, but it's been turned off at the switch. Makes one think.

Example: I keep a water bottle in the fridge so I can have a cool sip whenever I feel like it. About two weeks ago, I woke up to find the bottle missing. Today I found the bottle in the oven!

Example: I renewed my driver's license over the net in October. I received the license sometime in November or December. It was on my computer and I checked for it everywhere. I emailed TXDOT saying I never received it hoping they would send me a new one. That was Friday. Yesterday morning the license was laying on top of my desk calendar! The old one that was in my wallet was gone though.

It does make my life interesting. I never know what to expect or when. At least they're friendly.

Brownie points to the first person that can name the animated green man above.

Chif out.

Section 8

Finally some great news. I have been on the San Antonio Housing Authority, or SAHA list for the past seven years. They put me ahead of other people since I was disabled. Seven years I've waited patiently.

I'm gonna be busy the next few days with management here, but it should be no problem because she's familiar with the jargon and paperwork.

Maybe I'll go buy a bottle of champagne to celebrate...Have a great Friday followed by a great weekend.

Chif out.

Ho Hum Day

Today was another ho hum day. Been there done that. Last week was ho hum with cold weather. Today was a gorgeous ho hum day. I did venture out, went to the library and pharmacy.

I checked out some DVDs I may or may not watch. I just have to commit to watching a movie and try to get into it. The pharmacy is always interesting because I sometimes get medication I've been trying to get for some time. And that happened today.

Note to self: write about gremlins.

Chif out.

Birthday boy

Happy 61st birthday to Mark Spitz. I remember watching the Olympics and was just mesmerized by this hot hunk. Kudos to his speedos, my one complaint about the current swimming where they wear these ergonimic thing that looks like not as hot as they can be. Let's write to the Olympic Committee to bring back the speedos. LOL.

He was interviewed somewhere and he still looks yummy. My one complaint, he shaved his mustache! How dare he.

Chif out.

Nurse Visits

The fall left me with two wounds, one on the left elbow and the other on my back down from the left shoulder. The elbow finally healed over and now we're just left with the back wound. My doctor wanted five times a week, but my insurance only approved me for three times a week.

I've gotten used to my nurse visits as has Jean Luc. He has to get in everybody's business. He always says hello and we have to wait for him to give his permission. Everyone likes JL.

Chif out.

Neuropathy

I don't know if I've written about my neuropathy. Apparently there are two kinds of neuropathy, one is pins and needles pain. I have the numbness in my left foot and it's jumped over to my right foot. It's very annoying and frustrating.

Damn if the thing went up to my head. It's a funky feeling to have that in my head. It feels like you're wearing a hat and when you take of the hat, it leaves a numbing feeling where the hat was worn.

I do have an appointment with my primary physician tomorrow and I will run this by him. Cross your fingers, I get lab results tomorrow also.

Chif out.

The Return of Lupe?!

Before my infamous fall in the tub, I was loopy and we don't mean Lupe! Mess, Hush Puppy, and Purple 13 noticed there was something wrong with me. I didn't make sense and spoke gibberish. Of course nobody said anything for whatever reason.

So that takes us to yesterday. Apparently me and HP had a conversation that I don't remember. Just got off the phone with him and he was a bit concerned, alright, very concerned.

I know I have written about my talking to people who aren't there or my mind is racing from one topic to another. HP is the only one who has seen me in action. Pobresito.

They all said I sounded loopy and some said I even look like I was stoned. My apologies to them. I'm fine and everything's fine at home.

Chif out

Birthday boy

Happy 49th birthday Garth Brooks, 7 Feb. I just love a man that can fill in a pair of blue jeans, and Garth does a great job.

Chif Out.

Shady Pines or Rehab!?!?!!!

Meanwhile, back at the ranch...Santa Rosa was able to have me admitted into a rehabilitation hospital and I don't remember the first few days. As I started to feel better and confident.

This 'hospital' was a disappointment. They actually have a physical therapy area and I was there to learn how to walk. Okay, I was disappointed with the therapists because they had me doing things I don't do. It wasn't until the final week that I told them I wanted to concentrate on my legs and feet.

Chiflado wanted out of Shady Pines asap. The social worker told me that my stay was on only to a certain day and he wanted to know if I wanted to file paperwork for another two weeks.

The nurses station was next to my room and they were loud and freely used colorful language. They never even came to change my dressing until I asked. The cafeteria food was horrible. I'm hoping to get a survey so I can vent myself out.

Chif out.

An Outing

We're in the midst of very cold weather with a possibility of snow. Of course this will freak out the locals. Okay, I'm a local but I spent five years in Michigan and honey, that's snow.

Mess rang me up and we were off to HEB. But first we had to get his inspection sticker. That was no brainer, somebody talked about to Mess where we could go.

Then we went to Luby's for lunch. That way he can have his fish and I can get some meat. Don't go there.

Then we went to the Olmos HEB. I was disappointed because there were no hot men out today. I did get some things that were not on my shopping list.
Of course as soon as I got home and starting putting things away, I remembered other stuff to get.

Now that I'm on Meals on Wheels I don't have to buy that much groceries. I did get my whimsical sangria. Whimsical is cheap booze according to Gucci B. And I'm always in a whimsical mood, I'm a meat and potatoes kinda guy.

Chif out.

Birthday boy

Happy 66th Birthday to Tom Selleck, one of my favourite hotties that is masturbation material. Woof! I'm loving the body hair and the speedos only confident men wear.

Chif out.

Good News/Bad News

My nurse was in here today and when I took off the bandage, the scab came of also. This is a major step for Chif, we're still working on the back wound which has stopped draining and a scab is starting.

Bad news dept: my neuropathy has spread to my head now. Both feet have it, first the left foot and then the right foot. At least I have this version rather than the painful kind. It's a funky feeling numbness kinda like when your foot falls asleep. I don't think there is a prescription for this one, I just gotta get used to it.

Chif out.

Poison Oaks

The highlight of my week was attending the gala premier of Mess's spoof of Grey Gardens. It is kinda difficult to review this because we're friends. But I will say this was hilarious and the audience laughed in the right places. For your enjoyment, here is the trailer of Poison Oaks, a fictional but true story.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AlA2NdMEAak

Chif out.

Lazy Sunday

What a wasted day. I woke up ready for a nap. I had my morning cawfee then took an hour nap. I heated up my lunch from Meals on Wheels, and then took a 6 hour nap!

Is it the depression knocking at my door or was I just blue. It was another blah day for me. And I'm ready for bed, so for now,

Chif out

Visit

I am so exhausted. I had an appointment with Dr D. and I have a cooperate
just knife in case. I actually have some just in case.

I do have a great doctor in Dr M. He listens to what one is staying.Moi is very sleepy.
More later.
Chif out

Saturday w/HP

HP came over to use my computer. We actually met outside Blanco Cafe where we ate and visited.

We came home and he got on it and I actually committed to a DVD. I'm on the last season of Ally McBeal. There were plot lines that caught HP's attention and he would come over and watch some of the episodes. I'm getting ready for the next episodes.

HP has seen the series but he still left the computer to watch something that caught his attention. B recommends it also because of how they break out to sing. I was working when it came out and I had no time to turn on the TV.

Ladies who Lunch

I hooked up with Purple 13 today. She says I'm looking good compared to the last time we saw each other. She too says I looked like I was stoned. I can't believe nobody said anything probably because nobody wanted to hurt my feelings.

We lunched at Blanco Cafe. We're always in the mood for Mexican, I'll take one if I can find one worthy. We had a nice visit. She asked about Mess and Hush Puppy, and says I was lucky to have friends like Mess and HP.

Then I went to the library and the pharmacy and came hope exhausted and wound taking a quick nap. Being sick takes it's toll on me. As busy as I was I had to go to the library to pick some DVD, that I probability wont get to see.

Chiflaco out

Meals on Wheels

Like I wrote yesterday, I have been approved for the Meals on Wheels program. I actually got two meals. One was warm and ready to eat and the other is a frozen entree also that I can defrost and nuke when I'm ready.

So far, this year has been better than last year. Okay it is the first month of the year, I'm just a half glass full kinda gal.

Chif out

Birthday Girl

Happy 89th birthday to Golden Girl Betty White, 17 January. We have been lucky to have her in our lives all these years. Gotta love this pic.

Busy Tuesday

I am so exhausted. Went to get lab results with Dr M, and my Tcell count is at 153 and I'm still undetectable. I also got my pneumonia shot. I also got a new med for high blood pressure, don't know if my blood pressure is good or it's the med working.

Mess was an absolute angel and took me to the store also. I doubled up on groceries in case I run out of them by next week. So I'm a happy camper for now.

Good news when I got home. I've been approved for Meals on Wheels starting tomorrow. My case manager and the nutritionist at my clinic and I got on the same page with this one. Chiflado is very lucky to have these people helping me out.

I have some more good news, but I forgot what it was. Just another AIDSheimers moment. If I remember what it was I'll blog it when I remember.

Chif out.

Murky Monday

Wow. This morning was murky, the fog was horrible. I looked out the window and saw nothing but fog. It was like a cloud was sitting on the city. And then, when you expected the worst, it cleared up and we could see blue sky once more.

My nurse came in to change my dressing and it might have been her last day. That's all my insurance would pay for. I see Dr M tomorrow and see if he decides to order more visits.

The rest of the day was blah for me. I'm running on empty grocery wise. Mess did offer to take me to the store tomorrow, we just need to coordinate with each other.

Tomorrow I get to see Dr M and get my lab results besides checking my wound. The wound on my elbow is ready to scab over. My other wound definitely needs more time to heal.

Chif out

Lazy Sunday

It's still wet and cool outside. I tell JL that he's lucky to be indoors especially in this nasty weather.

Yes I ventured out today. We were supposed to get together, but Mess wasn't feeling well. I almost talked myself into going out with HP, but I changed my mind.

I decided to get a burger or pizza, but I wound up at Fuddrucker's instead. The burger won over the pizza only because it's cheaper than a Domino's pizza. So there I went with my walker, still having difficulty getting on or off wherever we roam. Kinda nice how people treat me the disabled person on the trolley.

I did have dizzy spells and a little vertigo. I almost lost my balance several times. I should also report that I saw this hot guy with an equally hot nose.
I like to build my burger just the way I like it.

So I'm sitting there looking at the tourists deal with the weather. They're the ones wearing shorts in this cool weather. This weather reminds me of Michigan with all the snow. It's pretty the first day, but an annoyance after the snow plows came by and turned it ugly. At least I don't have to shovel snow anymore.

Chif out

Wet Saturday

Today was just a continuation of yesterday, cold and wet. It was a day I woke up ready for a nap.

I did venture out today though. I usually like to treat myself to breakfast or lunch at Blanco Cafe. The waitresses know me and kinda know what I'll be having. Purple 13 says that I'm a creature of habit and she knows what I'll order also. I like to throw a wrench and order something different.

There was a slight drizzle as I left the building. Yes I used the walker and I did not fall down. I used to walk with long strides and now I take baby steps so I won't fall down. So far so good.

I didn't bother to turn on the computer until now. I usually don't get emails on the weekend anyway. I think I took a nap sometime today. I look at the clock and notice that I lost track of what I did, so I guess I did nap. It is perfect weather for staying indoors and do nothing.

Just got off the phone with HP and we have not heard from Mess. We're supposed to get together sometime tomorrow. We're gonna have a late lunch or early dinner.

Chif out.

Dreary Friday

It's another day of cold and wet weather. Perfect to stay indoors, like I need an excuse. There's nothing I have to do today. I did call L to get on her list for next month's bus pass. And I'm waiting for my nurse to come in and change my dressing. When will that end? I'm not one to wait on anything, drives me nuts sometimes.

There are days when I have to go out, or just to get out of the apartment. But as soon as I go out, I can hardly wait to come back home. Like I should go to the store today, but I'm afraid I'll fall again. I'd be very limited because I would have to go out with my cane or walker. But I have today's weather to keep me from going out.

I'll just have to wait and see how the rest of the day pans out. So for now,

Chif out.

Anniversary

I forgot to mention that Sunday was our first anniversary together. That's moi and Jean Luc. It was a nice day with lotsa love. I remind him how grateful he should be an inside cat and not out on some cold days like this past week.

We love each other and we both purr at each other every chance we get. And they said it wouldn't last.

Birthday Girl

The birthdays have gotten out of control. I've decided to blog one a week on Wednesdays.

Happy 74 the Birthday to Dame Shirley Bassey, 8 January. She has an incredible voice and has some James Bond theme songs under her belt.

Moody

I've been in a moody state of mind. I think it's the depression making an appearance. I have no energy to do anything and it's difficult for me to focus on anything. I literally sit all day and do nothing.

One would say it's the weather, which is staying on the covers kinda day. We are in the midst of an Arctic blast. That would explain this week but I've been moody for a while, even before my tub experience. I'm tired of being on auto pilot and pretending I'm okay.

I wish I had more to report, so for now...

Chif out.

Monday News

The elevator was out of order this morning. Not that I was going anywhere, but my poor nurse had to climb the stairs to my Crystal Palace. I checked the elevator before she left hoping she wouldn't have to use the stairs again. It was still out of order.

Next I was waiting for someone from the State that would give me a provider. A provider is someone who would do some light chores, and help one bathe if needed. I don't think I'll get one judging on the questions asked. When he called he said it would take 45 minutes for his assessment, and this guy was here at least 5 minutes tops. At least the elevator was working when he visited me.

Went to group even though it was cold. I had to talk to L about some co-pays. This agency helps out with co-pays. And hon, I need help. I'm just getting statements from my hospital stays. I am so grateful for L's agency, she has helped out with co-pays before and she also pays for my yearly visit to the optometrist and new glasses if necessary.

For some reason I am exhausted and ready for bed.

Chif out

Santa Rosa

The Chif saga continues...remember it's all about me!

I kinda wish I had something to write about my stay at the Santa Rosa hospital. I remember seeing D&B in some room I guess near the ER. I do remember seeing a nurse dressed up like a tiger and I realized it was Halloween.

I was in a morphine induced haze and I didn't know what was going on. I had to get bits and pieces from everyone that visited me. I don't know how long I was on morphine, maybe my whole stay, who knows. I keep hearing what I did and said from everybody, and there were some interesting stories that came out of my mouth.

I do remember somebody saying I was gonna be transfered to another hospital with physical therapists. I basically had to learn how to walk again. But that's another posting. For now,

Chif out.

A Visit w/HP

HP's computer is on the blink and he wanted to go to the library to use their computers. I talked him out of that and he'd be welcome to use my computer.

We visited for a bit before he got on the computer. JL went up to him and demanded attention. Here was another lap for him to get comfy in. HP got on the computer while I checked what was on TV. One would think I should watch one of my DVD's, but I wasn't in the mood which is why I wound up watching PBS's cooking shows.

HP and I visited some more after he surfed the web. JL was on his lap when he almost bit HP. I wonder if cats have teething episodes like children do.

It's always nice to have company, but it's sometimes to short time together. And just like that, our visit came to an end and HP left to catch the next bus home.

Chif out.

An Outing

I was thinking how I would be able to go to the store. It would be impossible with a cane or my walker.

Mess called me today to see I needed to go to the store. Talk about the same wave length. Hon, I'm there.

He was hungry so we went to China Harbor for their buffet. He decided last month to eat vegetarian. That means no meat or chicken, but he's eating fish. I'm a carnivore so I need meat. There was something for both of us at the buffet.

After pigging out, we went to HEB in the so called Deco District. I had my list ready and got everything on my list. He also picked up some items he needed.

And I'm grateful to get my groceries and of course I'm grateful for Mess to have invited me out.

Chif out.

Walker

I got my walker last night. Now I can get some of my independence and confidence back.

I broke it in today. I had lab work and then I went to the library and pharmacy. It's gonna take a while to get used to it. I did have difficulty getting on the trolleys though.

Chif out.

Rescheduling

I had two appointments today. When I saw the wet streets, I decided to reschedule them and hopefully the weather will be more in my favour.

Nothing else going on. I have some DVDs from the library to watch but I'm not in a movie mood. Or any mood, HP lent me a book to read and it's been sitting there waiting for me.

Chif out

Yesterday

Hush Puppy invited moi et Mess over for dinner. It was a great spread. He brought a plate of cheeses and grapes. Mess said it looked like the plates at Candle Light.

HP continued to the main course, chicken and dumplings and we had a nice French crust bread courtesy of Mess. Of course we had a great time because of the great company.

We wound up talking about things and the hours passed real slowly. Before we knew it, it was five hours we'd spend enjoying each other. We know there will be other get togethers.

Chif Out

Meanwhile...

I didn't know what was going on, but Mess and Hush Puppy were concerned because they had not heard from me in days. Mess even called Centromed, why I don't know. But the nutritionist got worried about me also. They even called me during group to see if I needed a ride.

Finally, HP suggested we call 911. He couldn't call from work so Mess called the cops. Mess had already tried talking to the manager to see if she had seen me.

Finally I heard someone at the door and I started screaming for help. I still don't know if it was the police or the manager that found me. All this is in bits of pieces from my memory.

I think it was the paramedics that pulled me from the tub. They lifted me like I was a rag doll and eventually on to the stretcher. They asked where my meds were and they took everything.

I do remember asking for some clothes also because I knew I would need them. And there was the ride down in the elevator and then the lobby and out to the ambulance. They entered all my meds into a computer and told them all my paperwork is at Santa Rosa Hospital, which is only three blocks away.

Chif out.

New Year's Day

Just another day come and gone. I have DVDs from the library, but I have not been able to concentrate on anything lately. At least the library can get some statistics out of me.

Mess called and invited me to Stella's for dinner. Actually he said she asked for me to be there. I'm not one to say no to a free meal.

We wound up having a mini-Thanksgiving dinner. We had turkey, stuffing, and vegetables. I've always been one for the side dishes and I filled up my plate with everything and extra stuffing.

It was a small intimate group with two of Stella's friends. I did feel like an outsider because they had a past together and I didn't know what to do so I just listened to their stories.

It was nice seeing Stella. She's all about hugs and kisses and I hugged her when we got there and when we left.

Chif out.